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I’m seriously in love with this look and so happy to finally show it to you! It’s still very fall-like in these pictures but we already had our first snowfall on Sunday, can you believe it? Not the best idea to wear your pants like this right now but I thought that it’d look cool to show you something different. Plus, these jeans aren’t very skinny and you may remember the first look of my C&A collab for which I had already worn not-so-skinny jeans and it’s just not as perfect as super tight ones. So this cropped look is a great alternative for when your pants are too wide and when you want to show off your boots. ;)
Of all the pieces I’ve shown you (and there are still three looks coming), this sweater is my absolute favorite. It’s the softest and coziest sweater ever and I’m pretty sad to tell you that it’s already sold-out online – but don’t worry, from time to time, some sizes are available again and you just have to be quick. ;) I’m actually waiting for it to come back in my size, too, so I can get a second one. I’m just too much in love with it. It’s cute but still sophisticated because of the bronze glitter dots and I have to say that I really like the combination with navy blue! I added a touch of black with the hat and some glittering red on my lips for that perfect fashionable fall look (at least for the warmer days, haha! Right now it’s all about a warm jacket…).
During interviews, the question “Did you always feel good in your body?” is usually one of the first questions. As if it was a masterly performance to be satisfied with yourself or as if I should rather lie and/or be ashamed of it – because I’m fat. And I should feel bad about it. Thanks!
Of course I know that it’s not the easiest thing to look at yourself (especially naked) in the mirror and say “Hey, I’m awesome the way I am!” if everybody and everything is telling you all the time that you’re not – unless you change this and that and most important: you lose weight. Because only as a thin person you’re a valuable part of this society, accepted and tolerated, beautiful and desirable. If you’re fat, the best “compliment” you can expect is that you have a pretty face – usually this is weakened by a passing “If you were thin…” plus a random positive development you could achieve in your life. Be it with men, at your job, anywhere: if you’re skinny, you’re automatically better. And then, when you’re thinner, you notice that it wasn’t that much worth it, because if you’re not fundamentally happy with yourself, the few sizes less won’t change anything. Only the diet industry will be cheering loudly cause they recruited another disciple, a new member of their “sect”, for which counting calories or “points” is as holy and will bring you the same light as twelve “Ave Maria”. Isn’t it sad to think negatively about food and yourself all the time? Is that really worth it?
Now I’ve certainly been a lot thinner 8 years ago when I started this blog. I wasn’t skinny-skinny but a lot skinnier than today. Back then, I wore an average EU size 38, today it’s 44-48. For some who approach me about that from time to time, it seems to be a catastrophe of a horrible dimension, they’re horrified and convinced that it should be some kind of apocalypse for me, they can’t understand at all how something “like this” could happen, and they’re left pretty confused when they see that I’m not as distraught as they are. Cause for me, it’s really not that terrible.
As I promised you in my last post about the PSFD, here comes my first look with a dress from Paprika. I fell in love with it the second I saw it at the marketplace and had to buy it as soon as I got back home. I actually wanted to shoot it with a hat (you all know me: fall = hat season) but then I liked it even better with that crazy hair style (loads of dry shampoo and hair spray but I haven’t used a curler!).
I also love to be back at wearing overknee boots and got a new pair for this season – bold red ones which I want to wear with the other Paprika dress I bought! ;) Can’t wait to shoot the look! It’s gonna be so cool (at least in my mind). :)