Who thought that → March has already been super crazy, will be surprised that April was even more intense. I’m so glad I’m making such a great progress and that so many amazing things are happening in my life right now and that I’m the one responsible for it – not others. :) I’m pretty sure I was the most dependent person ever and I’m finally coming out of my cocoon of fears and anxiety and now I’m just living. ♥
I did a few crazy but funny things like → petting a fish in our local Botanical Garden (it’s fun, he really seems to like it!), gave a homeless person some money and a donut and spent about half an hour talking to her about life (and received a picture of her dogs which is now in my calendar forever), ate cupcakes alone (nobody judging me, haha!), sold a few clothes at the “Curvy Bloggerflohmarkt” in Fürth (and met some amazing new people!), went on a few → strolls through Hamburg and also here around the lake (finally moving my lazy ass again!) and – probably the craziest but best thing: went alone to Bad Homburg to → watch a concert and got rewarded with the → best day ever in my life.
I went to Hamburg for a few days, originally to visit the launch event of the new “Happy Size x Michalsky” collection (such a cool party with lovely people!) and added a few more days for business and some quality time with my friends. This included a very important meeting with my new management (yay, finally found someone to help me!), my → first time in Blankenese (can you believe that I never went there in my three years living in Hamburg? #shameonme) and an important understanding: last time, I realized that I’m ready to go back to Hamburg – this time, I realized that I’m ready to do whatever it takes to get there. What I’m trying to say: I’m ready to change everything in my life. I bawled a lot when I realized that. And this is overwhelmingly great. ♥
Some thoughts about all that: I already said it in my post about my game-changing day – it’s great to live the experience that you don’t need someone else to be happy. It’s kind of brave to make that first step and do something alone. It’s not that easy if you’ve always been someone asking others to join you or if you simply don’t like being alone, but oh, it’s so worth it to just not think to much about it and JUST DO. It’s incredible how free and strong you feel afterwards, how amazing it is to see and understand that being alone is not that bad, that being alone does not mean that you’re lonely. You got the best company by your side: yourself. And if you’re not able to have fun with yourself – nobody will make you sufficiently happy in life, I guess. Of course it’s always cool to have someone around, someone you love or someone you like to spend time with, but it’s so important to understand that you don’t need that someone. And I’m so glad I made this experience a lot this month. ♥
Books I read in April: Tina Brömme – “Wie programmiert man Liebe?”, Helena Steegmann – “Tage wie Chili & Honig”, Petra Hülsmann – “Hummeln im Herzen”, Laura Kneidl – “Verliere mich. Nicht.”, Mark Lowery – “Die ganze nackte Wahrheit”.
I’m writing this down because I’m wondering if you’d like to read a single recap to all of them or if you’d like me to do one post with a collection of short reviews? I’ve still got a lot of books on my crazy stack and I also decided to do a wish list on Amazon, just in case someone wants to surprise me, haha!