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🎵 I swear to God, I wasn't born to fight
Maybe just a little bit, enough to make me sick of it
But I can read between the lines
I want to run from everything
But my legs won't work, it's clear to me

I haven't been much myself
And I feel like my friends are being put through this hell I'm feeling
I think that I'm living, if you could call it living
So brash and unforgiving
Ruled by the vibe I'm bringing
Serving myself 🎶 „Bambi“ • @thehalocline

🎵 I swear to God,...

[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] Die Insulinpumpe an der Hüfte ruiniert zwar so ein bisschen die schöne Form des Kleides, aber wir wollen mal nicht so sein! Ich hatte heute einen tollen Abend auf dem neuen Floor „Olive“ im @east_cosmos - zusammen mit @maccosmeticsdeutschland, die mich für den Abend hübsch geschminkt haben (siehe Stories!). Da war viel los heute, in jedem Zimmer eine Überraschung, vom Make-up über Champagner, live zubereitetes Sushi vom Meister (oh, und das im East ist auch wirklich mit das beste Sushi hier in Hamburg!), Fotoboxen, einer kurzen Massage, bis hin zu einem kleinen, aber feinen Tattoo (das sind ja irgendwie die neuen Cupcakes und Cakepops der Eventszene!) war alles dabei, sogar ein Mini-Casino, aber natürlich standen auch die wirklich sehr schönen neuen Zimmer im Fokus, die zwar so gar nicht „typisch East“ sind, aber wirklich absolut traumhaft geworden sind! Chapeau! Ich wäre am liebsten direkt über Nacht geblieben, aber dann wäre Spucki wohl traurig gewesen. 🤓 So, jetzt Füße hoch, die High Heels waren nämlich auch nicht ohne. 😅 #plussize #plussizeoutfit #plussizeblogger #luziehtan #celebratemysize #honormycurves #effyourbodystandards #easthotelhamburg #flooropening #maccosmeticsdeutschland

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Ein kleines Selfie von gestern, darf auch mal sein. #instagramwiefrüher

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3 Steps to Happiness. ♥️ #justgimmeicecream

3 Steps to Happiness. ♥️...

[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] Diesen wunderbaren Kaftan kann ich euch natürlich nicht einfach so vorenthalten, da muss ein Komplettfoto her! 😍 Ich bin ja schon ein wenig verliebt in das Teil, aber bei mir steht kein dekadenter Sommerurlaub an, zu dem der passen würde, daher hab‘ ich mich für das Eis entschieden (Guave-Papaya, megalecker!!!), aber vielleicht kommt ja eine von euch im Kurvenhaus rum und nimmt das schöne Teil mit! 🤓 #plussize #plussizeoutfit #plussizeblogger #luziehtan #celebratemysize #honormycurves #effyourbodystandards

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[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] Genießt alle euer langes Wochenende! ♥️ #iscreamyouscreamweallscreamforicecream

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“I don’t have it all together but I‘m working on me. I want to remain in a constant state of improvement. That’s my idea of the perfect journey.” 🖤 #gettingmyshittogether #butpeaceofmindisalsofine #illhaveboth

“I don’t have it all...

[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] Hatte einen wundervollen Nachmittag beim @fevertree_de Mixers Market im hübschen Innenhof des @tortue_hamburg - Sonnenschein, gute Drinks, beste Laune! #plussize #plussizeoutfit #plussizeblogger #luziehtan #celebratemysize #honormycurves #effyourbodystandards #fevertreemixersmarket

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• Recap | October •

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Okay, okay, something’s extremely wrong with my timing – it’s almost December and there’s still no October recap online yet! So here we go… As you can imagine, my “new life” is pretty busy and I’m trying to focus on my work, since I have to make some money to be able to continue living here in Hamburg. Right now, it’s a pretty tricky situation and I’m hoping that in the end, everything will turn out alright and fine and that I don’t have to go back to “Plan Z” – going back home to my parents. But hey, that’s nothing for a recap post, it’s gonna be something for a #TTGU post that I want to write in the near future. Until then, let’s have a look at my highlights from October!

I was supposed to start working on October 2, but I caught a cold and was pretty knocked out, so I could only start at the second week of October. No worries, though, I’m still learning a lot, but it’s also a lot of fun and I really have amazing colleagues with whom work doesn’t feel like work. :) And there are so many lovely clients! It’s fun to help them choosing the right outfit and feeling a bit more self-confident and yes, I’m also super proud that especially thanks to my Instagram Stories (I keep uploading my ‘work look of the day’, so feel free to stop by my →  Instagram profile), there are also people coming around to see me. :) It’s so great to meet you and get to know you!

I had it already checked off my →  #SingleBucketList 2018, but I went for it for a second time: I went to another concert! Yay! This time, I didn’t have to travel far, because it was a concert here in Hamburg – I went to see Beach House, one of my favorite bands, which you may know from my musical recap of 2017. And it was an amazing evening, absolutely stunning. And yes: I went there alone again!

But here’s another point of my bucket list: go to a bar alone! I actually did it! At first, it felt weird and I was a bit nervous, but I felt like doing it and just went for it. Done. It was absolutely fine and even though I felt a little bit uncomfortable in the beginning, I quickly got used to it and already did it a few times more. Super easy, since I’m an extrovert and communicative person! I’m pretty proud that I made it happen. :)

Last big event of October was a vernissage which happened to be a huge meet-up of so many people from the plus-size blogosphere! There were people I haven’t seen in about 4 years and it was like a class reunion. So much love and →  so many positive vibes! And a great vernissage!

• Recap | September •

Time flies! October’s almost over and I haven’t even written my September recap yet! I’ve really been pretty busy, and here’s what happened last month…

September started with the year’s most fashionable event – the Plus Size Fashion Days! I still have to write an extra post about it, so I hope that you can still be a bit patient with me – I’ll post as many pictures as possible!! And I really hope that – as every year – there’ll be a video as well! :) This year, my mom finally made it to the show – she visited me at home and went to see me on the catwalk and we spent a day in Hamburg together. I’m still happy that I got to have her here with me. ♥

I had two trial days at my now new job, in order to see if I like it and if we’re a match – and I got the job. Right now it’s just a temporary work thingy, but we’ll see how everything works out and maybe make it a part-time job! :) I’m happy to let you know that I’m working at the Kurvenhaus now, so if you’re here and looking for a plus-size shop in Hamburg, come around! :)

September was my sunset month – I wanted to see as many sunsets as possible, sitting at my happy place. Well, didn’t work out as good as planned, but I got to see four stunning sunsets and took a lot of pictures. I also met a few friends and also new people and had a great time! Especially at the Junipalooza (it’s a Gin tasting festival), where I made new friends and found the most amazing Gin ever (Warner Edwards “Rhubarb Gin” – gosh, it’s just perfect!).

And yeah, September 26 was the most important day of the month – my divorce! I wrote about it → in this post and with this, that whole chapter of my life is finally over and I can’t wait to continue my marvellous life! :)

• Recap | August •

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Whoa, what happened? It’s been some time since I last updated you guys on the blog and I’m really sorry – I guess, life has happened, and an absolutely amazing summer which I tried to enjoy to the fullest. So… let’s recap August!

August started with my first festival ever – “A Summer’s Tale”. But I didn’t go there as a visitor, I went there for work. Three days of foodtruck fun at a pretty nice festival, even though unfortunately, I didn’t pick up much of the music (and missed one amazing band, Grizzly Bear, but shit happens, huh?). It definitely wasn’t easy, to be honest, I was completely exhausted after these days cause it was super hot and therefore even hotter in the truck and we were all working real hard. But it was worth it. Even though I realized that this won’t be my favorite job experience ever. It’s fun to work with people and I like to communicate with everybody, but physically, it’s way too hard for me (to be honest). Apparently, life saw this too and yelled “Hold my beer!”, cause my next job experience is about to happen soon and I’m excited to see where it’s gonna lead me to…

I finally had a new photo shoot in August, with the most wonderful → Julia Marie Werner, in collaboration with a → friend’s agency and the brands → Süperb and → Secondella, and I can’t wait to show you the cool looks we shot on yet another hot summer day. :)

I went to a casting for a movie in Berlin, had my first job interview, met new friends, including a visit from → Mona from the Netherlands, and I had a model job on a little fashion show at the Kurvenhaus, a local plus-size store here in Hamburg, just a week before the Plus Size Fashion Days (but these remain for the September recap). :)

All in all, August was a very hot month, full of new experiences and wonderful people. I got to know who my friends are and went on a few strolls through the city, found two new jobs, but am still searching for a new place to live, so that’s gonna stay interesting for a while. But I’m on it. And I’m curious to see what’s gonna happen next!

• Recap | July •

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Oh July, you were a tough month! It’s so crazy how my life changed completely in only one day in July, on the 8th, when I sat in my car and drove to Hamburg to finally chase my dream to live here and be as independent as possible. I already wrote about → the first two weeks in my new column → #TimeToGrowUp, which I will update as soon and as often as possible, because I think that this is one of the most interesting times of my life and hopefully will show many other people who struggle with the same or similar problems in life, that you can achieve anything if you really want it and decide to fight for it. It’s a battle, it really is, but it’s absolutely worth it, even though it’s pretty hard.

It kind of wasn’t as easy as I expected to say goodbye to my hometown, my friends and even my therapist, because this time, leaving was different. I had changed a lot in this past 14 months and my relationship to my hometown and everything around had grown to be a bit different. I clearly miss my parents a lot, even though I know that leaving them is necessary and the right thing to do. I also miss my friends, especially my best friend who helped me a lot when I had to come back and stay for God knows who long it would take. And also my new friends, the friendships I made in this special changing time of my life. I miss my favorite sushi restaurant, my favorite bar, I miss driving around my hometown and the next city, finding a parking lot much easier. I miss driving to my photo shoots and having my old blogger life back for a few hours. I miss many things. But as much as I miss them, I’m happy that I made this step and left it all behind. Because leaving doesn’t mean to forget. I’m utterly thankful for everything I had in the past year, the safety of my home and my parents, the friendships, the possibility to “blossom” in a known environment. And I will forever remember that time of my life and how much it made me grow already, even though there’s still a lot of work to do. 

So, for the moment, I’ve settled down in my little room, I’ve got everything I need, I got a bed (or something like it, still need an actual one, my back is gonna kill me soon), I got a desk, I got a few clothes (wasn’t prepared for THAT kind of summer, though!), I got my cat and he’s got everything he needs (even though he could clearly use a little more space but I’m glad that he’s a very comfy little guy who sleeps most of the time and is okay with our current situation – he’s not going crazy and he gets a lot of love from me and also my friend!). And I got a job. And it was already super hard – I knew it wouldn’t be easy but I kind of underestimated it a little bit, concerning the physical work, especially in combination with these temperatures (which are even higher in the truck). I’m also looking for a second job, because my work at the food truck will not pay for everything and I will definitely need more money, especially when I want to move out of our shared flat, which is supposed to be in five months.

This month, I didn’t manage to do something from → my bucket list, except for maybe sitting in the park alone – it wasn’t on my bucket list but is definitely a part of “doing things alone”, which is something I still need to do more often. So no official check-off, but something to mention. I didn’t like it, by the way. I felt very lonely in the middle of many people sitting around me with their friends or partners, doing picnics or drinking beer. Since it was very spontaneous, I didn’t bring a book and I guess that it would’ve been a bit nicer if I could’ve read something. Next time, I’ll make sure to have a book with me. Oh, and since I’m already talking about it: only read one book this month – “Wenn’s einfach wär, würd’s jeder machen” by Petra Hülsmann. As all books from her, I loved it. :)