• Private XIX | Unapologetically me. •

• Private XIX | Unapologetically me. •

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Photos: Sung-Hee Seewald

During interviews, the question “Did you always feel good in your body?” is usually one of the first questions. As if it was a masterly performance to be satisfied with yourself or as if I should rather lie and/or be ashamed of it – because I’m fat. And I should feel bad about it. Thanks!

Of course I know that it’s not the easiest thing to look at yourself (especially naked) in the mirror and say “Hey, I’m awesome the way I am!” if everybody and everything is telling you all the time that you’re not – unless you change this and that and most important: you lose weight. Because only as a thin person you’re a valuable part of this society, accepted and tolerated, beautiful and desirable. If you’re fat, the best “compliment” you can expect is that you have a pretty face – usually this is weakened by a passing “If you were thin…” plus a random positive development you could achieve in your life. Be it with men, at your job, anywhere: if you’re skinny, you’re automatically better. And then, when you’re thinner, you notice that it wasn’t that much worth it, because if you’re not fundamentally happy with yourself, the few sizes less won’t change anything. Only the diet industry will be cheering loudly cause they recruited another disciple, a new member of their “sect”, for which counting calories or “points” is as holy and will bring you the same light as twelve “Ave Maria”. Isn’t it sad to think negatively about food and yourself all the time? Is that really worth it?

Now I’ve certainly been a lot thinner 8 years ago when I started this blog. I wasn’t skinny-skinny but a lot skinnier than today. Back then, I wore an average EU size 38, today it’s 44-48. For some who approach me about that from time to time, it seems to be a catastrophe of a horrible dimension, they’re horrified and convinced that it should be some kind of apocalypse for me, they can’t understand at all how something “like this” could happen, and they’re left pretty confused when they see that I’m not as distraught as they are. Cause for me, it’s really not that terrible.

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• Layers •

• Layers •

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Photos: Falko Blümlein
Dress: H&M Trend
Body Suit: H&M Trend
Belt: H&M Divided
Boots: Vince Camuto
Hat: C&A
Earrings: Dior “Mise en Dior”
Alternatives: ASOS Wedding dress,
ASOS dress, Lavish Alice dress,
ASOS body, Pieces belt,
Call it Spring boots, Carvela boots,
ALDO hat

I finally tried the layering trend, which makes it possible to wear summer dresses in fall/winter. ;) I’ve chosen to wear a body suit underneath my dress and went for another blue-and-black-and-white combo. It’s becoming one of my favorites, I guess… But I promise, you’ll get to see some cool new looks in the near future, including something totally not me but still great. Can’t wait to surprise you! But let’s not forget today’s look – I really love it and that’s why it’s up on the blog right now. I’ve actually been wanting to do this layering thing with → my yellow lace dress, but somehow, it looked pretty wrong on me, so I gave it another try with this one, which looks amazing without the body suit underneath but gets this special look and definitely is a little bit more fashion with it. ;)

Fall season is hat season for me and I love wearing one all the time, even though Hamburg is pretty tricky with its windy weather. You gotta make sure to wear the right size so it doesn’t fly away! ;) And, as you know me – there’s almost no look without a belt. But hey, at least I got new boots! Found them on sale and couldn’t resist bringing them home with me as they’re not only great but also super comfy. Have worn them a lot already!

I wish you all an amazing week! ♥

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• Fall Flowers •

• Fall Flowers •

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Photos: Falko Blümlein
Body: H&M
Skirt: made by my mom
Belt: Ted Baker “Julo”
Peep-Toes: Jamie Jacobs
(designed by me)
Earrings: Dior “Mise en Dior”
Alternatives: ASOS body,
ASOS Curve body, ASOS belt,
Office sandals

I must admit that it’s already a bit too cold for this look – at least, the sun was shining when we took these pictures, but now there’s mostly rain and cloudy weather. Typical fall in Germany, I’d say… I guess I’ll have to do another take on this look, maybe with boots and less boobs (time for a turtleneck sweater now!). ;) But for now, I thought that this body was just perfect together with the skirt my mom made for me. It’s a very light rosé-beige and – like → this body – not easy to wear with a bra underneath. That’s why I skipped the bra again but wore a Spanx body suit which at least supports the bust from the sides. :)

I wish you all a lovely new week – I’ll have to relax a bit after last week’s crazy times at the Plus Size Fashion Days. So many amazing moments! I’ll tell you more about the event as soon as I get the photos (and the video, can’t wait to see it!). On Friday, you’ll get to see the outfit I wore at the opening party – dress code: “Black & Gold and All That Glitters”! Maybe some inspiration for Christmas and New Year’s Eve! ;)

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• Night Out •

• Night Out •

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Photos: Falko Blümlein
Body: H&M Trend
Skirt: Beth Ditto “Lola”
High Heels: YSL “Tribute”
Bag: Bottega Veneta “Knot Clutch”
Earrings: Dior “Mise en Dior”
Alternatives: ASOS skirt,
Public Desire heels, Claudia Canova clutch,
Lavand clutch, Faith clutch,
ASOS earrings

I mostly show you my daytime or event looks and usually they’re rather classic (yet extravagant), but this time, I want to show you a sexy night-out look. ;)

Since I really loved Beth Ditto’s first collection, I had to buy a last piece of it. Especially because I’ve got → the “Lola” dress and know how amazing it fits and looks and that it is probably the only tight dress with a pencil skirt cut that works with my figure, I ordered the “Lola” skirt some time ago. Pencil skirts have always been something I’ve avoided because I know that their cut isn’t made for my waist-to-hip ratio and they look like a sack because they’re not tight enough at the legs for the real pencil skirt look. So when I got the dress and saw how great it was, I decided to get the skirt when it was finally a bit cheaper (since I got so many pieces of the collection, it was about time I saved some money). The whole collection is now on its final sale and it’s almost completely sold out (the skirt is only still available in sizes 24 and 26!), so if you waited for the lowest price to get something, you gotta order now before the next collection comes in. ;)

The body is definitely a daring piece and yes, I know that my boobs aren’t as perfect as many would like to see them when wearing such a low neckline. But let me tell you: I’m happy like this. I love this look, I love my breasts (even though they’re seriously not easy when it comes to bra shopping – but → here’s a shopping tip for everyone in or coming to Hamburg!) and I like showing them packed or rather unpacked like this. I don’t get why women are forced to look like in a magazine, where everything’s photoshopped in order not to look saggy or lumpy, where women are retouched to look “unreal” and unreachable so we think that we’re not okay as we are and have to go on diets, work out more than before and maybe even do plastic surgery because that’s the last option to achieve this look. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying that I’m against the “optimization” of ourselves, but I want you to know and understand that we don’t have to feel forced to look like something we’re not. And we don’t have to feel bad when we look at those pictures of women who look “perfect” while we can be perfect for ourselves by simply accepting that we’re great – just as we are.

And since I’ve been writing about boobs: take care of yours. It’s breast cancer awareness month and even though I’m not doing a special post about it, I want to spread awareness and tell you to always check your breasts for knots and lumps. I like to do it under the shower, just take two minutes and palpate them for any abnormalities. It’s important to do this regularly so you know your breasts and feel when something’s wrong. When diagnosed early, breast cancer has good chances for cure, so take your time and care for yourself. Do it today and make sure everything’s fine!

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