• Private XVI | Embrace •

• Private XVI | Embrace •

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Photo: “Embrace” / CinemaxX PR

CinemaxX kindly invited me to watch “Embrace” with a few other lovely women (best company ever to watch this movie!) on May 11. I know it’s been some time, but of course, I want to drop a few lines about the movie and what I think about it.

You all know that body positivity is my daily routine. It’s very important to me and when other women share the same message, it makes me very happy. The fact that the documentary movie “Embrace” found its way into German theaters is so amazing, even though it was very disappointing to see that in most of the cinemas who showed it, the movie was only played once on one single day. This documentary should be obligatory for young people – mainly girls, of course, but also boys. Because they also know the struggle of body shaming and self-hate. And if they don’t, they might learn an important lesson about women and how it is and feels like to live in a body that’s never good enough – until you decide for yourself to change this feeling and embrace yourself.

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• Thank you •

• Thank you •

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Instead of answering your comments one by one I want to do an extra blog post and say THANK YOU – from the bottom of my heart. Thank you for your kind words and your support. I really appreciate reading your comments and your love and it means the world to me that you all understand my situation and support me and my decision to ease off a bit. As I already told you, this is not the end of this blog and it’s also not a goodbye because I will continue posting, just not too much and probably only just a few outfits. I’m currently at a turning point in my life and I am more than ready for the changes that will happen. Because suffering from depression and anxiety has made me a very fragile, weak and unfortunately also very dependent person – and this is not who I am. I will now focus on my mental health, on changing my bad habits caused by my fears and the deep sadness and therefore on myself and becoming the person I actually am: strong and independent. I know it’s inside of me and it’s time to liberate that again. I’m thinking about maybe taking you with me on that journey since I know the stigma of depression and that it’s still a taboo to admit that one is actually ill. I’m not 100% sure if I will really write about it but I want to let you all know that it’s okay to understand that you need help. It’s okay to accept that you’re not just sad. It’s okay to ask for help and it’s okay if others know that you need it. This is why I’m telling you all this. I want to let the world know that everybody, even the funniest, happiest and luckiest person may be depressive deep inside. Faking a smile is the easiest when you suffer from depression even if it’s the hardest. Depression means opposites, illogical thinking, fear and sadness, but also hiding, especially so others won’t know how you feel and what you think. Please just never forget that you are not alone. There is help out there, you just need to ask for it and also accept it. And be ready for a change. That’s what I finally understood and there’s no shame about it.

• #BeachBodyNotSorry | Phylyda •

• #BeachBodyNotSorry | Phylyda •

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Photos: Falko Blümlein
» Hamburg | Elbe (Övelgönne)
Bikini: Phylyda “Lula” top & “Bea” bottoms
Earrings: Dior “Gum Tee Shirt”
In cooperation with Phylyda. 

I must admit – after correcting the colors and sharpness of today’s pictures, somehow, the legs ended up with some weird texture. Don’t worry, though – I didn’t retouch anything and you can obviously see my cellulite! With that in mind, I kindly welcome you to this year’s #BeachBodyNotSorry project! :)

I already got to know about Phylyda last year but there was no time for a collab left. I’m so happy that we managed to do something for this season and this also means that by now, I already own three bikinis from Phylyda, since I escalated at the pop-up store back in April. No “oops” from me because these pieces are worth every cent and their “mix & match” ability is level 100 – every combination looks just amazing! Lydia, the founder of Phylyda, asked me to shoot this combo and I happily said yes, crossed a fence, climbed down many rocks and positioned myself at the Elbe at low tide for a photo shoot that made many people stare (of course, it was so super sunny on that Sunday, so everybody was out for a walk…). And I loved it! Best way to start a new season of my favorite project. Can’t wait to do more of these shoots and I hope you’re also super excited to see more of them!

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