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My mood these days: desperate queen. 🙆🏼‍♀️ Bin nach wie vor nicht gerade glücklich (und man sieht es mir an) zur Zeit, aber das mit dem Aufstehen und Krönchen richten mache ich halt einfach wortwörtlich. Wäre ja blöd, einfach aufzugeben!

My mood these days: desperate...

Serenity. ♥️ #hamburgloveistruelove

Serenity. ♥️ #hamburgloveistruelove

[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] Letzten Monat auf der @eatandstyle kennengelernt und direkt mal verkuppelt: das wunderbare Grapefruit Tonic Water von @luscombedrinks.germany und der Sloe Gin von @feingeisterei_finespirits - ein perfect Match! ♥️

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[Werbung | Advertisement] Monday got me like... okay, ist gelogen. So leicht bekleidet und happy bin ich an diesem Montag nicht, aber es ist trotzdem ein guter Tag - und wenn ich das Foto anschaue, kriege ich sowieso gute Laune, das war nämlich ein toller Tag mit @sueperbthelabel @keentheagency und @julia_marie_werner - und die Bilder von diesem fröhlichen Look gibt’s grad alle auf dem Blog! 😉 | 📷 @julia_marie_werner

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Spucki und ich wünschen euch einen schönen ersten Advent. ♥️ Seid lieb zueinander!

Spucki und ich wünschen euch...

[Werbung | Advertisement] Auf dem Blog gibt’s einen neuen Look von meinem Shoot mit @sueperbthelabel und @secondellahamburg - würd‘ mich freuen, wenn ihr vorbeischaut! 💙 | 📷 @julia_marie_werner

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[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] So this happened yesterday... 🖤 Thanks to the most wonderful and talented @rei.ink who created an absolutely perfect dream of a floral tattoo for me.

[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] So this...

[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] Mal wieder ordentlich angezogen in eurem Feed, haha! 😉 Das hab‘ ich gestern beim X-mas Fashion Dinner mit @ernstingsfamily im @thefontenay_hamburg getragen und mich unheimlich über so viele Komplimente gefreut! Es war ein toller Abend, mit schöner Kleidung, leckerem Essen und wunderbaren Drinks! ♥️ #plussize #plussizeoutfit #plussizeblogger #luziehtan #celebratemysize #honormycurves #effyourbodystandards

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[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] Happy Sunday! No clothes, no problems - oder so ähnlich, haha! Ich bin ja nicht so der größte Fan von irgendwelchen deepen Sprüchen unter Instagramfotos, die meistens nicht mal wirklich zueinander passen, aber eins kann ich euch sagen: auch in dunklen Zeiten sollte man nicht vergessen, dass es wieder besser wird. Das muss ich mir grad selbst immer wieder ein bisschen vorhalten, denn seit einem Monat läuft hier einiges nicht so wie es sollte, aber ich will auch nicht aufgeben. Ich kämpfe grade sehr mit allem, vor allem auch mit mir selbst und meinem alten Ich, den Depressionen, Ängsten und Zweifeln. Ich weine viel, auch oft einfach so ganz plötzlich, dabei will ich nicht mehr so negativ sein, auch wenn es halt nunmal grad sehr negativ ist. Aber ich hab‘ mich in den letzten 1,5 Jahren so sehr aus dem Loch gekämpft, in dem ich war, und da will ich nicht wieder zurück. Ich habe so viele positive Veränderungen in meinem Leben erlebt (und glücklicherweise auch mit euch auf dem Blog geteilt) und schaue immer wieder mit Stolz darauf zurück. Ich will stark sein. Für mich selbst und meine Zukunft. Also kämpfe ich weiter und dann lasse ich auch diese dunklen Zeiten wieder hinter mir! Tschakka! ♥️ (Und WTF? Wie konnte dieser Post jetzt so unschuldig anfangen und so tiefgründig enden? Upsi.) | 📷 @theblondefreckles

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[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] #meinanutshell - bei Blödsinn immer als Erste mit dabei. Siehe Stories für das Ganze in Bewegtbild! Habt noch ein schönes Wochenende, ihr Lieben! ♥️ | 📷 @julia_marie_werner

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• Recap | July •

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Oh July, you were a tough month! It’s so crazy how my life changed completely in only one day in July, on the 8th, when I sat in my car and drove to Hamburg to finally chase my dream to live here and be as independent as possible. I already wrote about → the first two weeks in my new column → #TimeToGrowUp, which I will update as soon and as often as possible, because I think that this is one of the most interesting times of my life and hopefully will show many other people who struggle with the same or similar problems in life, that you can achieve anything if you really want it and decide to fight for it. It’s a battle, it really is, but it’s absolutely worth it, even though it’s pretty hard.

It kind of wasn’t as easy as I expected to say goodbye to my hometown, my friends and even my therapist, because this time, leaving was different. I had changed a lot in this past 14 months and my relationship to my hometown and everything around had grown to be a bit different. I clearly miss my parents a lot, even though I know that leaving them is necessary and the right thing to do. I also miss my friends, especially my best friend who helped me a lot when I had to come back and stay for God knows who long it would take. And also my new friends, the friendships I made in this special changing time of my life. I miss my favorite sushi restaurant, my favorite bar, I miss driving around my hometown and the next city, finding a parking lot much easier. I miss driving to my photo shoots and having my old blogger life back for a few hours. I miss many things. But as much as I miss them, I’m happy that I made this step and left it all behind. Because leaving doesn’t mean to forget. I’m utterly thankful for everything I had in the past year, the safety of my home and my parents, the friendships, the possibility to “blossom” in a known environment. And I will forever remember that time of my life and how much it made me grow already, even though there’s still a lot of work to do. 

So, for the moment, I’ve settled down in my little room, I’ve got everything I need, I got a bed (or something like it, still need an actual one, my back is gonna kill me soon), I got a desk, I got a few clothes (wasn’t prepared for THAT kind of summer, though!), I got my cat and he’s got everything he needs (even though he could clearly use a little more space but I’m glad that he’s a very comfy little guy who sleeps most of the time and is okay with our current situation – he’s not going crazy and he gets a lot of love from me and also my friend!). And I got a job. And it was already super hard – I knew it wouldn’t be easy but I kind of underestimated it a little bit, concerning the physical work, especially in combination with these temperatures (which are even higher in the truck). I’m also looking for a second job, because my work at the food truck will not pay for everything and I will definitely need more money, especially when I want to move out of our shared flat, which is supposed to be in five months.

This month, I didn’t manage to do something from → my bucket list, except for maybe sitting in the park alone – it wasn’t on my bucket list but is definitely a part of “doing things alone”, which is something I still need to do more often. So no official check-off, but something to mention. I didn’t like it, by the way. I felt very lonely in the middle of many people sitting around me with their friends or partners, doing picnics or drinking beer. Since it was very spontaneous, I didn’t bring a book and I guess that it would’ve been a bit nicer if I could’ve read something. Next time, I’ll make sure to have a book with me. Oh, and since I’m already talking about it: only read one book this month – “Wenn’s einfach wär, würd’s jeder machen” by Petra Hülsmann. As all books from her, I loved it. :)

• Heatwave •

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What. An. Amazing. Summer. It’s unbelievable how hot and sunny this year’s summer is! It’s just perfect, even though I wish it was just a little less hot cause I’m literally melting. Especially cause I had to work this week and it’s definitely too hot in a food truck. But it’s summer and I’m thankful that it’s so wonderful – everything is different, people are happy, we’re all in a very special mood, you can sit outside until you fall asleep on the balcony (happened to me, whoops), you can have ice cream all day long,… I mean, the last time I remember a summer like this, was probably 1995 or so. :) Childhood summers were always the greatest. And somehow, it feels like a childhood summer again. 

Anyways, this heatwave calls for less clothes than usual, so first thing I want to say is: PLEASE don’t care about what other people could think or say – it’s way too hot to hide yourself in too much fabric. Just wear whatever the heck you want, be as naked as you feel like (not completely naked where it’s not allowed, tho, haha!) and always remember to give zero fucks if someone complains about your look. ;) You’ve got better things to do in this summer. Like swimming. Or having another ice cream. Or just trying not to drown in your own sweat. Period.

I still had no chance to wear this dress, but we already shot it so I can show you my perfect summer date night look. And I really hope to find a perfect male match for this outfit, so we can go out and have the greatest date ever! :) 

Photos: Sung-Hee Seewald

» München (Studio)

Dress: Polo Ralph Lauren
High Heels: Arezzo

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• Private XXV | “Generation Beziehungsunfähig” •

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Hey, I’ll just say it right now, I’m not looking for something serious, I’m freshly out of a relationship.“
„Hello, nice to match you – by the way, I’m just looking for fun!“
„Looking for a ‘friends with benefits’ – you in?“

I don’t even know when exactly it started – I was obviously way too long in a relationship and missed the moment when humanity decided that the model of a simple relationship of 10 years ago is not cool anymore.

Admittedly, I’m not back in that „dating game“ for so long and to be honest, I’m not doing this excessively – I normally use Tinder while on the toilet when I’m bored, and all those other dating apps are pretty proletarian and therefore aren’t my thing. It really makes me wonder why someone would use Lovoo or Badoo (does everything have to end on double-o?) voluntarily. Tinder is pretty much known as a sex app (someone once told me that the name comes from „Titty Finder“ – I kind of doubt that but it’s not too inappropriate), but it seems to be less full of freaks („fuckbois“ all over instead) and halfway respectable.

Of course, my profile says that someone like me – obviously an old school lady – is not looking for sex dates. I seriously don’t. 90% of my matches aren’t interested in that and they seem to think that I’m a prostitute that doesn’t have to be paid without even saying hello. Okay, no problem, you can „de-match“ these people. The remaining 10% are 8% „pretending to be nice and then I’ll drop the ‘I’m not looking for something serious’ bomb“, 1% total freaks and that’s why they’re single (#sorrynotsorry – there was a guy who wanted to cuddle with me while wearing diapers which he also actually uses) and 1% actual candidates for a first date. But that’s material for another Private post.

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So now there are a few things I keep asking myself:

• Poppies in Paris •

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Photos: Jacqueline Filmore

» Nürnberg

Dress: Dolce & Gabbana
High Heels: Chanel
Hat: Frollein von Sofa (custom-made)
Bag: Dior “Lady Dior”
Bracelet: Hermès

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Well, “Poppies in Paris” sounds kind of weird, but sometimes, I’m not as creative with post titles as I’d like to be, haha! But since I called my older posts with this dress “Poppies and Daisies”, I wanted to have the flowers in today’s title – and Paris, it’s obvious, why I chose it. Even though this is clearly not the real Paris and totally not the real Eiffel tower. ;) But it was a lucky find – the whole location had so many surprises for us. We thought we’d go for some contrast with that lady-like dress and choose a not-that-nice background but went around the corner and saw this mini Eiffel tower. And only minutes later, that guy came around with his fancy car. Props to the universe for gifting us with these great picture enhancers for our “last” photo shoot together. “Last”, because it was officially the last one with Jacqueline while living in Franconia, but I’m pretty sure we will see each other again and hopefully create more amazing pictures together – maybe even in Hamburg! ♥

Just in case you want to see the other looks with this dress: “Poppies and Daisies I”“Poppies and Daisies II” and “Poppies and Daisies III” – you can also find them at the end of this blog post, as usual, if there’s material for “style it differently”. And yes, this dress is clearly versatile and was the best dress ever to buy. If I were a dress, I’d be this beautiful one!

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