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• Recap | August •

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Whoa, what happened? It’s been some time since I last updated you guys on the blog and I’m really sorry – I guess, life has happened, and an absolutely amazing summer which I tried to enjoy to the fullest. So… let’s recap August!

August started with my first festival ever – “A Summer’s Tale”. But I didn’t go there as a visitor, I went there for work. Three days of foodtruck fun at a pretty nice festival, even though unfortunately, I didn’t pick up much of the music (and missed one amazing band, Grizzly Bear, but shit happens, huh?). It definitely wasn’t easy, to be honest, I was completely exhausted after these days cause it was super hot and therefore even hotter in the truck and we were all working real hard. But it was worth it. Even though I realized that this won’t be my favorite job experience ever. It’s fun to work with people and I like to communicate with everybody, but physically, it’s way too hard for me (to be honest). Apparently, life saw this too and yelled “Hold my beer!”, cause my next job experience is about to happen soon and I’m excited to see where it’s gonna lead me to…

I finally had a new photo shoot in August, with the most wonderful → Julia Marie Werner, in collaboration with a → friend’s agency and the brands → Süperb and → Secondella, and I can’t wait to show you the cool looks we shot on yet another hot summer day. :)

I went to a casting for a movie in Berlin, had my first job interview, met new friends, including a visit from → Mona from the Netherlands, and I had a model job on a little fashion show at the Kurvenhaus, a local plus-size store here in Hamburg, just a week before the Plus Size Fashion Days (but these remain for the September recap). :)

All in all, August was a very hot month, full of new experiences and wonderful people. I got to know who my friends are and went on a few strolls through the city, found two new jobs, but am still searching for a new place to live, so that’s gonna stay interesting for a while. But I’m on it. And I’m curious to see what’s gonna happen next!

• To The Sea •

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Photos: Sung-Hee Seewald

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Dress: Marina Rinaldi
Mules: Sanayi 313

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I finally found the perfect shoes for this dress, a few months ago in the SALE! So happy about this, because they’re super comfy and elegant. And these kinds of shoes are the best. :) I’ve never really been a very maritime person, never explicitly bought stuff like that – but two years ago, I received this amazing dress from Marina Rinaldi. And since I wanted something to remind me of my comeback to Hamburg, I thought that these sea horse mules are just perfect. Plus, they perfectly match the dress. :)

• Time to grow up | III – About fears and worries… •

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Now that everything got pretty much serious, after → moving and my start into the „normal“ work life (even though that was kinda „light“, since it’s still not a very regular story), being „alone“ (even though I’m sharing a flat with my friend, I’m most of the time on my own) and the whole changing, there are a few fears that said hello again and about which I want to write today. Who knows, maybe it helps to put them into words and see what you’re about to fight – kind of a #BucketListofFears.

• Recap | July •

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Oh July, you were a tough month! It’s so crazy how my life changed completely in only one day in July, on the 8th, when I sat in my car and drove to Hamburg to finally chase my dream to live here and be as independent as possible. I already wrote about → the first two weeks in my new column → #TimeToGrowUp, which I will update as soon and as often as possible, because I think that this is one of the most interesting times of my life and hopefully will show many other people who struggle with the same or similar problems in life, that you can achieve anything if you really want it and decide to fight for it. It’s a battle, it really is, but it’s absolutely worth it, even though it’s pretty hard.

It kind of wasn’t as easy as I expected to say goodbye to my hometown, my friends and even my therapist, because this time, leaving was different. I had changed a lot in this past 14 months and my relationship to my hometown and everything around had grown to be a bit different. I clearly miss my parents a lot, even though I know that leaving them is necessary and the right thing to do. I also miss my friends, especially my best friend who helped me a lot when I had to come back and stay for God knows who long it would take. And also my new friends, the friendships I made in this special changing time of my life. I miss my favorite sushi restaurant, my favorite bar, I miss driving around my hometown and the next city, finding a parking lot much easier. I miss driving to my photo shoots and having my old blogger life back for a few hours. I miss many things. But as much as I miss them, I’m happy that I made this step and left it all behind. Because leaving doesn’t mean to forget. I’m utterly thankful for everything I had in the past year, the safety of my home and my parents, the friendships, the possibility to “blossom” in a known environment. And I will forever remember that time of my life and how much it made me grow already, even though there’s still a lot of work to do. 

So, for the moment, I’ve settled down in my little room, I’ve got everything I need, I got a bed (or something like it, still need an actual one, my back is gonna kill me soon), I got a desk, I got a few clothes (wasn’t prepared for THAT kind of summer, though!), I got my cat and he’s got everything he needs (even though he could clearly use a little more space but I’m glad that he’s a very comfy little guy who sleeps most of the time and is okay with our current situation – he’s not going crazy and he gets a lot of love from me and also my friend!). And I got a job. And it was already super hard – I knew it wouldn’t be easy but I kind of underestimated it a little bit, concerning the physical work, especially in combination with these temperatures (which are even higher in the truck). I’m also looking for a second job, because my work at the food truck will not pay for everything and I will definitely need more money, especially when I want to move out of our shared flat, which is supposed to be in five months.

This month, I didn’t manage to do something from → my bucket list, except for maybe sitting in the park alone – it wasn’t on my bucket list but is definitely a part of “doing things alone”, which is something I still need to do more often. So no official check-off, but something to mention. I didn’t like it, by the way. I felt very lonely in the middle of many people sitting around me with their friends or partners, doing picnics or drinking beer. Since it was very spontaneous, I didn’t bring a book and I guess that it would’ve been a bit nicer if I could’ve read something. Next time, I’ll make sure to have a book with me. Oh, and since I’m already talking about it: only read one book this month – “Wenn’s einfach wär, würd’s jeder machen” by Petra Hülsmann. As all books from her, I loved it. :)

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