I’m running a little late with my monthly recap but I’m not missing to tell you a little about November before we end this year not only with a December recap but also with my “JahresrückBLOG” (which is a lovely pun in German but won’t work in English), the recap of the year.
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It’s getting cozy again! Today’s look is super comfy and perfect for those rainy and snowy days before Christmas! :) All you need is a leggings, a sparkling sweater (love the two-in-one look with that sheer part below!) and a warm coat. This one was a huge surprise cause it is the most amazing (short) coat I’ve ever owned and I’ve already been using it so often – it’s definitely my favorite piece of this year’s winter season. As usual, most of the pieces are already sold out online, but again, I want to let you know that checking the shop more often is totally worth it, especially on Sunday evening – seems like they update their stock around that time. ;)
Today is not only the day I’m finally moving out of Hamburg for good, it’s also the day I’m changing something in my life that’s been a part of it for about 14 years. I decided to share this with you since I believe that this is a very important topic and it’s something we need to talk about more. A few days ago, after already thinking about it for a few years, I decided that I want to stop taking the pill. There are many reasons and these are some of them that led to my decision:
- I’ve been taking it for 14 years – that’s more than half of my life and definitely not acceptable anymore! I don’t even know who I am without the pill, without all those hormones in my body. I’ve been 13 when I had my period for the first time and got the prescription because of the horrible pain I felt. My gynecologist thinks I may suffer of endometriosis and checking this will be the next step.
- Not only have I been taking it for so long, I even took it without doing the pauses because of the pain. My gyn let me do this so I won’t even have my period and therefore avoid the pain. Of course it’s super convenient and lovely not to bleed every month but looking at it from the “natural” side: this is not normal.
- The pill is dangerous. Highly dangerous. I mean, only the danger of thrombosis is enormous and I don’t want to live in fear of this anymore.
- I’m pretty sure my migraine is caused by the pill. And I got it very often. Too often.
I’m actually a little scared of how my body will react. Like: I’ve always had very good skin, never any problems with pimples during my puberty or after, no acne, no nothing. Only thing I’ve been always struggling with is hormonal (maybe also caused by the pill, who knows?) hair loss. I’m pretty sure that it also didn’t help with my weight to take the pill so excessively. Another thing: diabetes plus period – this is probably going to be hell since it affects the blood sugar. So I’m pretty sure that I’ll have to learn a lot… And then there’s the fact that I’ve never got to know myself, my physical and emotional feelings, my period cycle or anything else without the pill. Thinking about it, this is actually not only terrible but also super sad.
I’m also scared of the pain I will feel again but I took a very special precaution: I’ve been part of a crowdfunding project called “Livia” – the device is supposed to work like a TENS machine especially created for menstrual pain. This sounded more than appealing to me and I blindly invested my money in this project and around July this year, I finally received my very own lilac “Livia”. And trust me: I’m extremely excited and curious to try it, so somehow, I’m actually looking forward to my next period (sounds horribly crazy because if it doesn’t work, the pain will be unbearable and it will definitely make me consider stopping this whole “no more pill” thing because this is my last chance – regular painkillers never worked for me)… I’ll keep you updated on that – if it works, how it works, etc.
And then there’s another thing I want to try – menstrual cups. I don’t want to use tampons anymore. It’s insane that it’s almost 2018 and the evolution of tampons stopped many years ago and the use of them is also pretty dangerous. And let’s be honest: sanitary pads are a bloody mess (pun intended, haha!). I really don’t like it. The invention of menstrual cups is super cool and I’m excited to get to know them (I’m open for any tips!), even though I won’t be able to use them instantly cause I’ll have to get to know my menstrual cycle. So here I am – ready for everything that’s coming.
Last topic: contraception. I still don’t know which path I’ll take for that. Obviously, there’s loads of stuff to discover, read and learn and I haven’t decided yet, what I want to try. We’ll see.
So that’s all for now. I’m pretty sure that in two days (at the latest) I’ll cryingly regret my decision but it’s so worth it. The pill is not an option anymore.
Questions for you: who’s on this journey with me? Are there other women who stopped taking the pill or intend to do it (join me, now!)? What are your experiences? How do you feel now? Which contraception method did you choose? Tell me your story if you want to, I’m super curious! :)
Today’s outfit post is a special one – I’m pretty sure not everyone is willing to wear blue metallic lipstick. ;) But it kind of felt like a thing I had to do, especially because it has the exact same color as the dress. It’s like a sign, right?
I love the kind of vintage touch this silk dress has, even though – as usual – I must say, that I actually hate silk. There’s no worse fabric and yet it looks so wonderfully elegant and sophisticated. I mean, look at the backside of the dress! It’s such an amazing piece. My mom had to shorten the sleeves, though, cause my arms are always to short for anything and those bell sleeves were a little over the top. ;)
I decided to go for antique gold accessories (thanks to the gray day, you can’t see their holographic shimmer) which work perfectly with the silver tiara. Let me say: I kind of feel like a modernized version of some Game of Thrones princess. ;) And well… Winter is coming, haha!