• #BeachBodyNotSorry | Zenaya •

• #BeachBodyNotSorry | Zenaya •

Today’s #BeachBodyNotSorry look is a bit different – first of all, because we shot it in the studio, so there’s no beach or pool around. But I think that’s okay, because it’s mainly about the message I want to spread with my annual project. :)

You may remember the project I shot last year with Sung-Hee, called “Female Diversity”, for which I posed naked – I used them for → this very personal blog post. This time, we went for clothing, even though most of the results are in lingerie. We’ve decided to work on underwear shots that are not primarily supposed to be sexy and/or erotic, which is not that easy to shoot when you’re wearing hot stuff, but I think we created some amazing pictures and you will get to see a few of them in some upcoming posts (still has to fit somehow, right?). 

I think, this one is my last #BBNS post for 2018, cause I won’t really be able to shoot that soon – there’s still some chaos because of moving, I really need to find a photographer and I didn’t bring new stuff to shoot. It’s gonna be interesting how everything will develop, blog-wise. And I hope that next year, I’ll be able to show you more beachwear again. 

Today’s photos are a bit different than the others I’ve been using for my project, but I think that’s just what makes them even more special and interesting. Sitting as a fat woman is so often a problem for many, but why is that? Just because we look even fatter when we sit and our bellies keep rollin’, rollin’, rollin’ (I had to… :D)? Everybody has belly rolls when they sit. Everybody looks a bit more like a little Buddha while sitting, especially all crippled on the floor at the beach. What’s the use of deciding not to sit down cause people could see you’re fat? Is it really worth it to try and hide yourself with all forces? Whether you’re standing or sitting, you’re still the same person and when you’re fat, you’re fat. That is that. Nothing bad about this, nothing to be ashamed of. It’s just a fact. And it’s still just an adjective. Even if you can see it and others can see it too. People who actually believe that they have any right to say something, should rather go eff themselves. Maybe we, the fat people, should actually start answering this instead of being ashamed and feeling sorry for our existence, even if that’s not polite at all. But is it polite to tell someone else he or she is disgusting? Or laugh about them? Or point at them with your fingers and whispering something to your friends? Think about it. And then choose to spread some love instead. Did I just contradict my own idea of telling mean people to go eff themselves? YES, I DID. Because: maybe smiling at them and wishing them a lovely day is a better answer to hate. And maybe it makes them think about the shit they just did. Maybe it will change their day, their view on other people. Maybe it won’t change nothing at all. But know that you just proved that you’re not on their low level of no acceptance and no tolerance. And that’s waaaay better. ♥

Photos: Sung-Hee Seewald

» München (Studio)

Swimsuit: Agent Provocateur “Zenaya”

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• #BeachBodyNotSorry | Selfies •

• #BeachBodyNotSorry | Selfies •

Now that’s some major flashback to 2009 – this blog post consists of selfies only (I’ll forever remember myself taking the first pictures for my blog, putting my camera on a stack of books, hitting the self-timer and running through my room for some awkward poses)! I took them last weekend when it was super hot and sunny and I just felt like sharing all the fun and good vibrations I was feeling that day. I originally thought of taking these pictures only for Instagram, but then I decided that even though the photos aren’t of super high quality and I’m not wearing any make-up at all, my hair not properly done and without any concept, just on my parents’ terrace, this is real and deserves to be posted. I wanna be real, I’m not a model, I’m a normal person and even after more than 9 years of blogging, I’m still that same person – just fatter, haha! :)

I believe that #BeachBodyNotSorry is also about this – no perfection, just realness and fun. I mean, who wears a full make-up to the beach? I don’t. Most times, I don’t even wear (water proof) mascara, just sunscreen, that’s all. Of course, my blog is about pretty things and taking editorial-like pictures is a lot of fun and I love the results, but I also love these honest pictures. I love that I was having fun, that I was not caring about how I look. And that’s just the message of this project. Don’t care – enjoy yourself. ♥

Photos: Selfies ♥

» Röttenbach

Bikini Top: Agent Provocateur “Lexxi”
Bikini Bottoms: Phylyda “Ariane”
Sunglasses: Chloé “Carlina”
Earrings: Vintage

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• Mercy •

• Mercy •

Photos: Jacqueline Filmore

» Ansbach

Corset: Agent Provocateur “Mercy”
Cardigan: Via Appia Due
Jeans: Zizzi

Pumps: LaStrada
Bracelet: Hermès

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So, after “all red”, here’s some “all black” again – with a hint of red! ;) I tried to do some kind of Dolce & Gabbana look, styling some actual lingerie as a going out look by adding jeans and a casual jacket. I bought this corset during my last Hamburg trip and it was the biggest surprise ever cause I never thought that I’d actually be able to wear one of APs beautiful corsets. Luckily, I spent a whole afternoon there with my friend and the lovely crew and we had so much fun playing dress-up doll with me. And yeah, it kind of escalated with me feeling so, so awesome in this corset that I simply had to buy it. But since I’m single and there’s only me to look at myself wearing it, I decided that I have to create a “daytime” (nighttime!) look with it so it can be seen by everybody without looking like I’m heading to the bedroom. I’ve already done a → similar look, but this one feels more perfect to me and I can’t wait to go out wearing this outfit. ;)

 

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• Fishnet & Lace •

• Fishnet & Lace •

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Photos: Falko Blümlein
Jumpsuit: Beth Ditto “Modern Love”
Cardigan: Via Appia Due
Bra: Agent Provocateur “Annoushka”
Fishnet Catsuit: Leg Avenue
Pumps: LaStrada
Bag: Gucci “Soho” Disco Bag
Earrings: Chanel
Bracelet: Hermès
Alternatives: ASOS jumpsuit,
ASOS Curve jumpsuit, River Island bra,
ASOS pumps, ASOS bag

You already know this look from → my very personal post in collaboration with Dove – if you haven’t read it yet, please do so and you’ll get to know how I get ready plus some stories about blogging. ;)

I wanted to give this outfit an extra post because it’s so cool and already one of my favorites of the year! :) I’m kind of late at the fishnet trend, but at least I didn’t go for the “large fishnet under destroyed jeans” look so I can say that mine is a bit different – I haven’t seen that many colorful fishnet tights or socks under anything, so I’m proud to be showing you something in a bold red. And in order not to look too vulgar (even though I’m wearing a pretty hot catsuit – which I just used as improvised tights – underneath my jumpsuit, haha!), I went for an all-black look around them. Oh, and – of course – a red lace bra for the continuous peek-a-boo red. ;)

You already saw the jumpsuit a few times here on the blog (see below at “style it differently”!) and it’s still my absolute favorite. This time, I pulled up the legs so it looks a bit like a culotte and wore a cardigan over it because of the cold weather and because it simply rounds up the whole look. The (fake) leather details on it make it even more interesting, so this was a great choice. ;)

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