• Poppies in Paris •

• Poppies in Paris •

Photos: Jacqueline Filmore

» Nürnberg

Dress: Dolce & Gabbana
High Heels: Chanel
Hat: Frollein von Sofa (custom-made)
Bag: Dior “Lady Dior”
Bracelet: Hermès

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Well, “Poppies in Paris” sounds kind of weird, but sometimes, I’m not as creative with post titles as I’d like to be, haha! But since I called my older posts with this dress “Poppies and Daisies”, I wanted to have the flowers in today’s title – and Paris, it’s obvious, why I chose it. Even though this is clearly not the real Paris and totally not the real Eiffel tower. ;) But it was a lucky find – the whole location had so many surprises for us. We thought we’d go for some contrast with that lady-like dress and choose a not-that-nice background but went around the corner and saw this mini Eiffel tower. And only minutes later, that guy came around with his fancy car. Props to the universe for gifting us with these great picture enhancers for our “last” photo shoot together. “Last”, because it was officially the last one with Jacqueline while living in Franconia, but I’m pretty sure we will see each other again and hopefully create more amazing pictures together – maybe even in Hamburg! ♥

Just in case you want to see the other looks with this dress: “Poppies and Daisies I”, “Poppies and Daisies II” and “Poppies and Daisies III” – you can also find them at the end of this blog post, as usual, if there’s material for “style it differently”. And yes, this dress is clearly versatile and was the best dress ever to buy. If I were a dress, I’d be this beautiful one!

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• #BeachBodyNotSorry | Zenaya •

• #BeachBodyNotSorry | Zenaya •

Today’s #BeachBodyNotSorry look is a bit different – first of all, because we shot it in the studio, so there’s no beach or pool around. But I think that’s okay, because it’s mainly about the message I want to spread with my annual project. :)

You may remember the project I shot last year with Sung-Hee, called “Female Diversity”, for which I posed naked – I used them for → this very personal blog post. This time, we went for clothing, even though most of the results are in lingerie. We’ve decided to work on underwear shots that are not primarily supposed to be sexy and/or erotic, which is not that easy to shoot when you’re wearing hot stuff, but I think we created some amazing pictures and you will get to see a few of them in some upcoming posts (still has to fit somehow, right?). 

I think, this one is my last #BBNS post for 2018, cause I won’t really be able to shoot that soon – there’s still some chaos because of moving, I really need to find a photographer and I didn’t bring new stuff to shoot. It’s gonna be interesting how everything will develop, blog-wise. And I hope that next year, I’ll be able to show you more beachwear again. 

Today’s photos are a bit different than the others I’ve been using for my project, but I think that’s just what makes them even more special and interesting. Sitting as a fat woman is so often a problem for many, but why is that? Just because we look even fatter when we sit and our bellies keep rollin’, rollin’, rollin’ (I had to… :D)? Everybody has belly rolls when they sit. Everybody looks a bit more like a little Buddha while sitting, especially all crippled on the floor at the beach. What’s the use of deciding not to sit down cause people could see you’re fat? Is it really worth it to try and hide yourself with all forces? Whether you’re standing or sitting, you’re still the same person and when you’re fat, you’re fat. That is that. Nothing bad about this, nothing to be ashamed of. It’s just a fact. And it’s still just an adjective. Even if you can see it and others can see it too. People who actually believe that they have any right to say something, should rather go eff themselves. Maybe we, the fat people, should actually start answering this instead of being ashamed and feeling sorry for our existence, even if that’s not polite at all. But is it polite to tell someone else he or she is disgusting? Or laugh about them? Or point at them with your fingers and whispering something to your friends? Think about it. And then choose to spread some love instead. Did I just contradict my own idea of telling mean people to go eff themselves? YES, I DID. Because: maybe smiling at them and wishing them a lovely day is a better answer to hate. And maybe it makes them think about the shit they just did. Maybe it will change their day, their view on other people. Maybe it won’t change nothing at all. But know that you just proved that you’re not on their low level of no acceptance and no tolerance. And that’s waaaay better. ♥

Photos: Sung-Hee Seewald

» München (Studio)

Swimsuit: Agent Provocateur “Zenaya”

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• Private XXIV | Different •

• Private XXIV | Different •

Photo: Jacqueline Filmore

I want to be different. Don’t get me wrong, this is not going to be an “I’m so much better than the others” or “I’m such a special snowflake” post – but it’s going to be an honest one telling you that the current image of plus-size bloggers and/or influencers does not make me happy. In fact, I’m pretty annoyed right now by the whole way of appearance the business chose to go for. And I’m annoyed by the fact that I’m somehow a part of it.

I am definitely not prudish or pedantic, but I believe that the whole current “sex sells” thing is kind of becoming too much and also not really helpful for how plus-size actually wants to be seen by the world. We keep asking for acceptance and tolerance and at the same time there are so many of my colleagues posting clearly sexual, sometimes even pretty cheap-looking pictures or videos of them on Social Media, obviously looking for attention and craving for followers – not or just partly for the actual body positivity movement.

Yes, I myself have also already posted lots of photos of myself in underwear, even naked, and I’m a true believer that it has to be and is a part of body positivity and empowerment to love and also show yourself in a sexy way. But I feel like it’s kind of getting out of control and becoming a provocation and show-off instead of an actual statement.

I believe that sexuality and also pictures showing that fat people are sexy and have sex are important. These pictures have to be seen as well as skinny peoples’ sexuality in order to change something. The media needs women “like us” to show themselves the same way as skinny women in ads and on international catwalks. The world needs to see women of all kinds, without the “magic” of Photoshop but with the power of self-love and self-confidence that empowers other women to understand that they are amazing just the way they are. There is no need to look like a model, no need to try to look like an unrealistic ideal, no need to change yourself and force yourself into something you’re not. This also applies to disabled bodies, trans bodies and any other body that does not reflect our society’s ideal body type – the skinny and photoshopped one.

But I also believe that plus-size women can be and are so much more than just sexy. I believe that we don’t need to show ourselves all of the time in underwear or naked or upload provocatively sexual pictures when especially on Social Media the actual feedback comes mostly from very disgusting examples of men who don’t even give a fuck about our [body positivity] message but keep telling us how hot we are and then sending us dick pics or harassing us in any other way, while there might be only a handful of women who do think that this is awesome, but still too brave, so they say that they’d never do this cause they’re afraid.

You guys know how important body positivity is to me. And this post is not supposed to shame my blogging and instagramming colleagues. Still, I want to be different. I don’t want to be a part of the “sex sells” movement. Because I feel that I don’t belong to that kind of movement anymore. I don’t wanna promote body positivity by being naked all the time. By shaking my boobs in front of a camera. By showing my naked butt fullsized on a picture. By typing trivial quotes under racy pictures of myself I’d only send to my imaginary boyfriend.

I want to keep writing texts, inspiring and motivating you through words and an actual message.

Of course I’ll still be posting some underwear pictures from time to time. Just because they’re a part of it and because I’m a firm believer that we have nothing to hide as plus-size women. I know that “sex sells” will always be a thing and that’s fine – it’s been like that since what feels like forever and that’s okay. I just don’t feel like being a part of that. I’m actually annoyed that I’ve been a part of that superficial and hollow subculture. Being a fashion blogger is indeed a pretty hollow job if you don’t make it special enough by having a message. And of course, it’s also okay to be one without having a message – you don’t always have to have something to say and it’s not always about being a role model. I’ve never really seen myself as one, even though I know about the responsibility I have by posting pictures of me – however they look like. I know that I want to empower other women (and all genders/identities), I know that I want to motivate and inspire people. Show that being fat is not a problem or the end of the world. You are what you make of it. It’s on you to choose your way. And I chose mine.

• Electric •

• Electric •

Photos: Jacqueline Filmore

» Ansbach

Dress: Anna Scholz
High Heels: YSL “Tribute”
Earrings: Dior “Mise en Dior”
Bracelet: Hermès

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Here we are again! I had to take the blog offline due to the crazy shit going on with the new EU-DSGVO which caused a horrible mess for many bloggers. I’m pretty sure nobody thought about us when deciding that this is the right way to go – and now many were so scared that they actually deleted their blogs. I really hope that everything is alright over here, but if you’re a pro and see something that I need to change, please let me know!

I’m going back online with a new outfit, currently the last one I had to share with you from my photographer here in the area. She’s recovering from surgery and will not be able to shoot with me until July, so I’ll have to figure out how to share new looks with you. Maybe I’ll give you some more of my selfies like in my latest #BeachBodyNotSorry post or I’ll find someone. :) You never know!

I bought this dress last year during SALE and it’s still waiting for a night-out date, but I decided to take some pictures before – and it kind of looks pretty cool in that location, right? It’s definitely colorful, so I’m going slow with the accessories and went for black heels and almost no jewelry. ;)

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