• JahresrückBLOG 2020 •

• JahresrückBLOG 2020 •

It’s finally time for my favorite kind of blog post – the annual recap! I had actually started another #TimeToGrowUp post about the past two years back in Hamburg and was supposed to post it before doing my recap but now it’s December 31 and I guess I can also combine these two posts, right?

2020 was a very weird but also very special year. I won’t say it was a great one because so many people lost not only their jobs and a lot of money but also their lives. It is a fact that 2020 changed a lot for many, many people all around the world. It was my personal financial death, since I lost my job in the beginning of the year, right on time for the whole crisis to start putting us in lockdowns and quarantines. So finding new job in my position, someone who’s never actually studied something, was kind of impossible. I spent most of the time at home, which, health-wise, was the best decision. I’m happy to say that so far, I haven’t caught Covid-19 – I’m actually scared about what would happen to me if I got it, since my immune system is pretty much a party pooper and I’m on high risk because of my Type 1 Diabetes. So yeah, I will continue to definitely stay at home as much as I can and be aware of all precautions.

Also, 2020 was a very lonely year but funnily, I made a few new friendships and also got to see who my real friends are. Especially since we couldn’t see each other a lot, video chats and phone calls got me through 2020, as well as watching way too much Netflix and playing video games. But I also went outside, during summer, and met new people (with distance) – and it was a great summer, to be honest. I kept saying it’s probably the last worry-free summer, regarding work and being an adult. Having no job during this year made me kind of feel like a teenager again, so I hope you understand this weird thought. Sitting in the park, having a beer, swimming in the lake, playing cards, listening to music, all that while having the sun shining on my poor head and burning my scalp was just what I needed to get through this…, well, shitty year.

Of course, I’m also sharing my favorite songs of 2020 with you, like every year. Feel free to listen to them while reading this post or whenever you want to. :) Without music, I would’ve never survived this year. And as every year, I’m more than thankful for all my 52 weekly mixes on Spotify cause they’re always perfect and have shown me so many wonderful songs and amazing artists!

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• Recap | December •

• Recap | December •

December – what an exciting last month of 2018! And luckily, the month that saved my whole year, since I finally found a place to actually stay and settle down without an expiration date. When I moved back to Hamburg in July, I stayed with a friend but our agreement was that I can stay until December – funnily, she kind of threw me out one month earlier and I had to move in with a guy I was dating for only almost a month, in order not to be homeless (which is bad enough alone, but don’t forget my poor baby – how are you supposed to live on the street with a cat?). Not so fun fact (and I was actually saving this for my next #TTGU post, but it has to be told so you can understand the whole situation): I didn’t want to be with him anymore. I felt so bad about doing that selfish move, living with someone just for the sake of having a home. I felt like a proper asshole. But the relationship was really bad, it didn’t work between us and actually made me sick. Like really sick. Mentally and physically. I had to leave as soon as possible! But it wasn’t that easy – since I only had this mini job at the store, I didn’t have enough income in order to rent an apartment. Plus, my cat was always a problem for other people. But I finally found something at the beginning of December and – thank God! – it happened, and I found the nicest little room in an apartment I’m now sharing with two more people – but perfectly located in one of the nicest districts of Hamburg. And my cat is with me. Seriously: that was my Christmas miracle. I moved in on December 21st and couldn’t be happier. Even though I wasn’t able to visit my parents over Christmas and New Year’s Eve because nobody could take care of Spucki and I didn’t want him to go through hell on that 600km trip through Germany, just for a few days. So I spent Christmas and NYE alone, since both of my flatmates were up and away with their loved ones, and even if it was kind of weird (my first Christmas alone and without internet, which was the worst part of it – no Netflix!), it was absolutely okay.

So this was my happy story of December. There was also work and I met some friends, but also spent some evenings alone, out or at home, and I am genuinely happy. I thought the end of 2018 was gonna be really rough, but it ended perfectly and New Year’s Eve was such a relief, I actually cried for an hour straight, because I was so happy it was finally over. And now there’s 2019 to conquer. Let’s go!

• Recap | November •

• Recap | November •

It’s been very quiet. The last two months were very intense and I was almost giving up. I will write about this in my next #TTGU post, which I’ll be writing in the next days and hopefully publish soon. But first, let’s recap November (and then, there’s still a very exciting December recap ahead – plus my recap of 2018, which is probably gonna be very emotional). 

November started with work and my first work day on Sunday – it was fine for me, since I really like my job and it’s fun to be around fashion and people. I’ll continue my job at the Kurvenhaus Hamburg next year, but will add another one, hopefully starting in the middle of January. We also had our Christmas party in November and I’m happy to say that I’m part of such a lovely team and that I feel that I get along well with everybody. 

November also started with a doctor’s appointment I was very scared of. I had to see my gynecologist for a follow-up check because they had found some cell changes in April. I was very nervous but luckily, everything seems to be back to normal again. She did not confirm it, but maybe quitting the pill has kind of caused this little incident. Who knows. Anyways, I’m thankful that everything’s okay. And I’m just writing this, because I want to spread awareness: visiting your gyn is important. As well as checking your body, especially your breasts, regularly.

I was part of the jury for Vollkommen. Braut.’s model casting for their new bridal dress line, together with my dearest → Silvana Denker (who shot the pictures). We were even filmed, but unfortunately, the video isn’t available online anymore. But you can find all pictures → here! :)

And, of course, there’s the happiest day of November: the 26th, official day of my divorce and funnily, the day I got a new tattoo (actually two, but I’ve only shown one of them yet). I’m glad that everything’s finally over and I get the chance to move on without any worries. And with an amazing new tattoo by → rei.ink – she was the best choice ever for this little piece of art on my arm.

At the “Deutscher Bloggerpreis 2018” • Best sushi I’ve ever had at Matsumi • Having a Skin Gin G&T at the “Made in Hamburg” fair • New Tattoo(s)! • My favorite cocktail at the FONTENAY bar after a wonderful Christmas dinner with Ernsting’s family

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• Recap | October •

• Recap | October •

Okay, okay, something’s extremely wrong with my timing – it’s almost December and there’s still no October recap online yet! So here we go… As you can imagine, my “new life” is pretty busy and I’m trying to focus on my work, since I have to make some money to be able to continue living here in Hamburg. Right now, it’s a pretty tricky situation and I’m hoping that in the end, everything will turn out alright and fine and that I don’t have to go back to “Plan Z” – going back home to my parents. But hey, that’s nothing for a recap post, it’s gonna be something for a #TTGU post that I want to write in the near future. Until then, let’s have a look at my highlights from October!

I was supposed to start working on October 2, but I caught a cold and was pretty knocked out, so I could only start at the second week of October. No worries, though, I’m still learning a lot, but it’s also a lot of fun and I really have amazing colleagues with whom work doesn’t feel like work. :) And there are so many lovely clients! It’s fun to help them choosing the right outfit and feeling a bit more self-confident and yes, I’m also super proud that especially thanks to my Instagram Stories (I keep uploading my ‘work look of the day’, so feel free to stop by my →  Instagram profile), there are also people coming around to see me. :) It’s so great to meet you and get to know you!

I had it already checked off my →  #SingleBucketList 2018, but I went for it for a second time: I went to another concert! Yay! This time, I didn’t have to travel far, because it was a concert here in Hamburg – I went to see Beach House, one of my favorite bands, which you may know from my musical recap of 2017. And it was an amazing evening, absolutely stunning. And yes: I went there alone again!

But here’s another point of my bucket list: go to a bar alone! I actually did it! At first, it felt weird and I was a bit nervous, but I felt like doing it and just went for it. Done. It was absolutely fine and even though I felt a little bit uncomfortable in the beginning, I quickly got used to it and already did it a few times more. Super easy, since I’m an extrovert and communicative person! I’m pretty proud that I made it happen. :)

Last big event of October was a vernissage which happened to be a huge meet-up of so many people from the plus-size blogosphere! There were people I haven’t seen in about 4 years and it was like a class reunion. So much love and →  so many positive vibes! And a great vernissage!

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