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[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] Yesterday was a #Negroni kinda Valentine‘s Day - yay! ♥️ Ich hab‘, wie schon prophezeit, gestern gearbeitet, hab‘ danach die ganze Kitschliebe von mir gespült, was gegessen, Netflix angeschmissen und war dann sehr spät noch auf einen Cocktail im @botanicdistrict - und habe den Drink sogar von einem netten Fremden spendiert bekommen (danke!). Kann man auch mal machen! 🤓

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[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] #meinkörperistkeinkostüm - auch wenn Frau @barbara.schoeneberger das offensichtlich anders sieht und sich, vermutlich nicht mal gewollt, mit einem Fatsuit auf dem Cover ihres @barbaramagazin und in einem passend dazu geposteten Video lustig macht, in dem sie im gleichen Fatsuit Essen vom Buffet in sich reinschaufelt, lacht und behauptet, das wäre „nichts gegen Dicke“, weil sie „ja selbst eine“ ist. Dicksein kann man sich nicht an- und wieder ausziehen. Seine Haltung gegenüber dicken Menschen kann man allerdings „ausziehen“ und ihnen respektvoll gegenübertreten, egal, was man davon hält. Menschlichkeit, Akzeptanz, Toleranz - das ist wichtiger als ein provokantes Zeitschriftencover auf dem groß „Stimmt was nicht?“ steht. Ja, da stimmt einiges nicht! Und weil so viele es nicht verstehen oder nicht verstehen wollen: #bodypositivity heißt nicht, Dicksein zu feiern, sondern jedem Menschen die Freiheit zu geben, sich selbst schön und gut zu finden, egal in welcher Form sich der Körper befindet! #plussize #plussizeblogger #luziehtan #celebratemysize #honormycurves #effyourbodystandards

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My best friend. 💕

My best friend. 💕

[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] Outfitideen ausprobieren - das hier könnte ich mir ja super für ein Date vorstellen. Zum Beispiel am Valentinstag. Mit mir selbst. 🙆🏼‍♀️ (Muss bestimmt arbeiten und werde dann so viele Pärchen sehen, dass ich das ganze Liebesgetue danach unter der Dusche wegspülen muss und es mir dann gammlig im Bett bequem mache - just saying. Haha!) #plussize #plussizeoutfit #plussizeblogger #luziehtan #celebratemysize #honormycurves #effyourbodystandards

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#hamburgloveistruelove

#hamburgloveistruelove

[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] Das Spiegelselfie kennt ihr ja schon, hier kommt nochmal ein Blick auf mein Outfit an Tag 1 der @hansespirit, ganz entspannt, aber dafür mal mit Locken! Bin ganz überwältigt, dass ich das hinbekommen habe... nachdem meine Haare ums Gesicht herum zur Zeit sowieso ganz wild machen was sie wollen, dachte ich, ich passe den Rest mal an. ✌🏻#plussize #plussizeoutfit #plussizeblogger #luziehtan #celebratemysize #honormycurves #effyourbodystandards

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[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] Fotogene Flasche, fotogene Gläser (!!!), fotogene Cocktails. Läuft bei euch, @thebotanistginde 😉👌🏻 Danke für den Drink auf der @hansespirit ♥️ #bethebotanist #hansespirit2019 #thebotanistgin

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[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] From yesterday - good times at @hansespirit with @gtmixology and @blankazufall 🖤 Outfit inspired by an obvious Whisky mood. #scotchislife #plussize #plussizeoutfit #plussizeblogger #luziehtan #celebratemysize #honormycurves #effyorbodystandards | 📷 @gtmixology

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[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] Things I like to wake up to on my weekends: a special delivery from @dexcom 💚 Finally got my new G6 and I couldn’t be happier! We’re talking about: smaller sensor, better sensor (how is that even possible, the G5 was already perfect!), no more finger pricks (YAAAASSSSS!!!), 10 days running time and - as usual - being able to manage it all through my smartphone. 19 years as a diabetic (in May) and all I can say is: THANK YOU, DEXCOM - you’re making this all a lot easier. Plus: I feel like a sexy cyborg. 😏 #dexcom #dexcomG6 #dexcomwarrior #diabetestype1 #type1diabetes

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[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] Wenn bei der @hansespirit halt einfach mal das beste Selfie-Licht ist, macht man zwischen den Tastings auch mal kurz ein Foto. 🥰

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• Time to grow up | V – About bad relationships and new challenges… •

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Well, I already mentioned it shorty in my December recap – and it’s clearly a story that needs more explanation. It’s not a pretty one and it definitely puts me and my character in a bad light, but I had no other choice, except for the one of giving up and even though I had to be the bad guy, the real asshole in this story, and it wasn’t the nice thing to do, it was the right thing to do.

• Time to grow up | IV – About getting divorced and unspoken words… •

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It’s been a bit more than two weeks now, since I finally got divorced after about one year and a half. This was the last step of finishing a chapter of my life. I’ve been thinking a lot about what to write in this blog post. I feel like the divorce is putting a new label on me, even though I’m finally free. Even though I’ve been literally waiting every day for this moment, when my marriage is finally officially over. It felt like a huge weight lift from my heart when I came out of the court after those fifteen minutes, during which I had to see my ex for the last time and officially state that this marriage is over and that I definitely don’t pretend to make it work again. But being a divorced woman kind of labels me, even though it does not define me. This is something I will have to accept and surely will, as soon as possible. I’m glad that it’s over and I want to wear this label as proud as I can, because it all changed me in the most positive way.

The only thing is: I wanted to finally say something and had no chance to do so. You must know that our break-up happened without any personal contact. My ex decided to end our relationship taking the easiest way out: leaving me at my parents, driving back home alone without telling me so, hiding somewhere when I came after him, and then simply writing me a message on WhatsApp that it’s over. It was humiliating. I mean, the person I’ve spent 8 years with, decided to treat me so disrespectfully to end a marriage the most inappropriate way – via text message. And not even with an explanation. Back then, I decided to just take it like this and not say anything. But with the time going by, I wrote a letter to him which I actually wanted to give him on the day of our divorce. A letter which, at first, I was hoping he’d read because I had so much to say about the way he broke up with me. A letter which I almost forgot of after some time because it just became irrelevant – there was no need to say anything anymore. Just one last sentence.

But I didn’t say it. There was no chance to say it. So I’m writing it down.

I’m thankful for the past 18 months. Thankful for the chance to rewrite my life, to change myself, to be who I am now and who I’m going to be in the future. I’m not thankful for how I was „disposed“ but thankful for the decision to do it like this because it made everything easier for me. I’m thankful for the chance to understand that a person like this was never worth it to make my happiness and my life dependent of him, and to understand that I’m the only one to make my life the life I want to live. I don’t need someone else to make me happy.

So here it goes:

Thank you.

• Time to grow up | III – About fears and worries… •

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Now that everything got pretty much serious, after → moving and my start into the „normal“ work life (even though that was kinda „light“, since it’s still not a very regular story), being „alone“ (even though I’m sharing a flat with my friend, I’m most of the time on my own) and the whole changing, there are a few fears that said hello again and about which I want to write today. Who knows, maybe it helps to put them into words and see what you’re about to fight – kind of a #BucketListofFears.

• Private XXV | “Generation Beziehungsunfähig” •

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Hey, I’ll just say it right now, I’m not looking for something serious, I’m freshly out of a relationship.“
„Hello, nice to match you – by the way, I’m just looking for fun!“
„Looking for a ‘friends with benefits’ – you in?“

I don’t even know when exactly it started – I was obviously way too long in a relationship and missed the moment when humanity decided that the model of a simple relationship of 10 years ago is not cool anymore.

Admittedly, I’m not back in that „dating game“ for so long and to be honest, I’m not doing this excessively – I normally use Tinder while on the toilet when I’m bored, and all those other dating apps are pretty proletarian and therefore aren’t my thing. It really makes me wonder why someone would use Lovoo or Badoo (does everything have to end on double-o?) voluntarily. Tinder is pretty much known as a sex app (someone once told me that the name comes from „Titty Finder“ – I kind of doubt that but it’s not too inappropriate), but it seems to be less full of freaks („fuckbois“ all over instead) and halfway respectable.

Of course, my profile says that someone like me – obviously an old school lady – is not looking for sex dates. I seriously don’t. 90% of my matches aren’t interested in that and they seem to think that I’m a prostitute that doesn’t have to be paid without even saying hello. Okay, no problem, you can „de-match“ these people. The remaining 10% are 8% „pretending to be nice and then I’ll drop the ‘I’m not looking for something serious’ bomb“, 1% total freaks and that’s why they’re single (#sorrynotsorry – there was a guy who wanted to cuddle with me while wearing diapers which he also actually uses) and 1% actual candidates for a first date. But that’s material for another Private post.

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So now there are a few things I keep asking myself: