I know, I know, it’s already February and actually way too late to post the second part of my annual recap, but hey – better late than never, right? And yes, there’s still a lot to say about the last year, probably the most amazing one of my life so far, because it taught me so much and helped me become the person I was struggling to be before my transformation started back in 2017. 2018 was an important year, a year of change, a year of new challenges and new things to experience, a year as single and embracing that fact. And oh, I really enjoyed checking off things off my bucket list! It was fun and it was exciting and I wish I had new ideas for 2019, but my brain won’t come up with something – at least, I still got some points left from 2018 and will try to turn them into memories! But here comes my → #SingleBucketList2018 recap!
Let’s start my recap of 2018 with the part that has gotten me through the year at any time: music. I’ve done this for 2017 and feel like sharing my favorite tracks of the year again, since music means a lot to me and it’s a big part of my life, even though I don’t play any instruments. Music soothes my soul, it’s something that’s always there and the best companion through every occasion – good ones and especially bad ones.
Like last year, I will be saying something about a few songs of my playlist and there may be some nice little stories!
This year, I listened a lot to music in my car while driving around, so many of the songs remind me of certain trips and when I listen to them, they kind of bring me back to special days, so I’ll share my memories with you for some of them. Feel free to listen to my favorites on Spotify, but for those of you who don’t happen to use it, I’ve also created a YouTube playlist (you can find it at the end of the post). I hope you enjoy my choices as much as I do, they really mean a lot to me. ♥
December – what an exciting last month of 2018! And luckily, the month that saved my whole year, since I finally found a place to actually stay and settle down without an expiration date. When I moved back to Hamburg in July, I stayed with a friend but our agreement was that I can stay until December – funnily, she kind of threw me out one month earlier and I had to move in with a guy I was dating for only almost a month, in order not to be homeless (which is bad enough alone, but don’t forget my poor baby – how are you supposed to live on the street with a cat?). Not so fun fact (and I was actually saving this for my next #TTGU post, but it has to be told so you can understand the whole situation): I didn’t want to be with him anymore. I felt so bad about doing that selfish move, living with someone just for the sake of having a home. I felt like a proper asshole. But the relationship was really bad, it didn’t work between us and actually made me sick. Like really sick. Mentally and physically. I had to leave as soon as possible! But it wasn’t that easy – since I only had this mini job at the store, I didn’t have enough income in order to rent an apartment. Plus, my cat was always a problem for other people. But I finally found something at the beginning of December and – thank God! – it happened, and I found the nicest little room in an apartment I’m now sharing with two more people – but perfectly located in one of the nicest districts of Hamburg. And my cat is with me. Seriously: that was my Christmas miracle. I moved in on December 21st and couldn’t be happier. Even though I wasn’t able to visit my parents over Christmas and New Year’s Eve because nobody could take care of Spucki and I didn’t want him to go through hell on that 600km trip through Germany, just for a few days. So I spent Christmas and NYE alone, since both of my flatmates were up and away with their loved ones, and even if it was kind of weird (my first Christmas alone and without internet, which was the worst part of it – no Netflix!), it was absolutely okay.
So this was my happy story of December. There was also work and I met some friends, but also spent some evenings alone, out or at home, and I am genuinely happy. I thought the end of 2018 was gonna be really rough, but it ended perfectly and New Year’s Eve was such a relief, I actually cried for an hour straight, because I was so happy it was finally over. And now there’s 2019 to conquer. Let’s go!
It’s been very quiet. The last two months were very intense and I was almost giving up. I will write about this in my next #TTGU post, which I’ll be writing in the next days and hopefully publish soon. But first, let’s recap November (and then, there’s still a very exciting December recap ahead – plus my recap of 2018, which is probably gonna be very emotional).
November started with work and my first work day on Sunday – it was fine for me, since I really like my job and it’s fun to be around fashion and people. I’ll continue my job at the Kurvenhaus Hamburg next year, but will add another one, hopefully starting in the middle of January. We also had our Christmas party in November and I’m happy to say that I’m part of such a lovely team and that I feel that I get along well with everybody.
November also started with a doctor’s appointment I was very scared of. I had to see my gynecologist for a follow-up check because they had found some cell changes in April. I was very nervous but luckily, everything seems to be back to normal again. She did not confirm it, but maybe quitting the pill has kind of caused this little incident. Who knows. Anyways, I’m thankful that everything’s okay. And I’m just writing this, because I want to spread awareness: visiting your gyn is important. As well as checking your body, especially your breasts, regularly.
I was part of the jury for Vollkommen. Braut.’s model casting for their new bridal dress line, together with my dearest → Silvana Denker (who shot the pictures). We were even filmed, but unfortunately, the video isn’t available online anymore. But you can find all pictures → here! :)
And, of course, there’s the happiest day of November: the 26th, official day of my divorce and funnily, the day I got a new tattoo (actually two, but I’ve only shown one of them yet). I’m glad that everything’s finally over and I get the chance to move on without any worries. And with an amazing new tattoo by → rei.ink – she was the best choice ever for this little piece of art on my arm.
At the “Deutscher Bloggerpreis 2018” • Best sushi I’ve ever had at Matsumi • Having a Skin Gin G&T at the “Made in Hamburg” fair • New Tattoo(s)! • My favorite cocktail at the FONTENAY bar after a wonderful Christmas dinner with Ernsting’s family