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[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] Before @junipalooza - during Junipalooza! (Nobody wants to see the after face, haha!)
The @sipsmith cab was a perfect place to try my first Sloe Gin! ♥️

[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] Before @junipalooza...

[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] Well, that escalated quickly! 🙆🏼‍♀️ From Daydrinking to coming back home at 6am... 🍸 Ich hatte gestern einen absolut bombastischen Tag beim @junipalooza (thx for the tickets!!) - so viel wunderbaren Gin hab‘ ich probiert, einige neue Favoriten gefunden, aber noch viel besser wurde es dann bei unserer privaten After-Junipalooza-Party mit neuen Freunden und definitiv grandiosen Cocktails mit @jandcs und @gtmixology (und Kevin und Jürgen 😂), für die ich mit Freude den begehrtesten Gin des Tages geköpft habe - den Rhubarb Gin von @warneredwards (absolut fantastisch!!). Mein All-Time-Favorite @skin_gin musste in der Hamburg-Edition in seiner Box mitkommen (weil: ist halt so), @niemandgin war eine spontane Erleuchtung direkt zu Beginn des Tages, @gint.premium.spirits ist wohl der Gin mit den meisten Umdrehungen und kommt aus Portugal, wo ich auch Familie habe und der Sloe Gin von @sipsmith ist einfach 👌🏻. Warum ich jetzt allerdings schon wieder wach bin, ist mir ein gewaltiges Rätsel... 🤔🤓

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Wish you were here. ♥️ #hamburgloveistruelove

Wish you were here. ♥️...

[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] THIS PARTY WAS A BLAST!!! 🎉 Ach, wie vermisse ich dieses Wochenende. Die Menschen! Die Show! Den Laufsteg! Die ganze Stimmung! Die @plussizefashiondays sind wirklich immer ein Highlight des ganzen Jahres. ♥️ Dieses Mal hab‘ ich ein bisschen mehr Zeit vor den Fotowänden verbracht und freue mich riesig, euch die wundervollen Menschen zu verlinken, die dabei waren. SO VIEL LIEBE!! ♥️♥️♥️ | 📷 @thomas_joedicke_photography und @kupferfux

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[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] Und hier kommt der zweite Teil meiner Runway-Looks! Die meisten Teile davon sind auch direkt nach der Show in meinen Besitz übergegangen, entweder dank eines großzügigen Geschenks der Marke (thx an @yoga_curves_hamburg @teamsugarshape @ca und @happysize_fashion!) oder weil ich dann doch mal wieder Lust auf Shopping hatte, haha! Ich muss auch echt mal erwähnen, dass ich alle meine Laufsteg-Outfits richtig toll fand! Von gemütlich und entspannt bis hin zu extravagant und aufregend war ja alles dabei und es ist so schön, dass die Marken sich auch wirklich Gedanken dazu machen, welcher Look zu den Models passt, um am besten zu wirken! ♥️ Habt ihr denn einen Favoriten bei meinen Looks gefunden? 😉 #PSFDays2018 | 📷 @thomas_joedicke_photography

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[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] Heute gibt’s endlich die erste Hälfte meiner @plussizefashiondays Looks vom Laufsteg! Das war schon ordentlicher Stress hinter der Bühne, aber ich bin stolz und glücklich, dass alles so toll geklappt hat! ♥️ Danke an @thomas_joedicke_photography für die vielen wunderbaren Fotos!! 😘 #PSFDays2018

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„A flower blossoms for its own joy.“ - Oscar Wilde • 
In Interviews werde ich eigentlich immer gefragt, ob ich einen Tipp habe, wie man selbstbewusst wird. Meine Antwort ist immer: hört auf, euch zu vergleichen! Immer ist irgendwer besser oder schlechter, aber davon sollten wir niemals unseren eigenen Wert abhängig machen. Anstatt uns auf Andere zu konzentrieren, was sowieso meist nur oberflächlich machbar ist, sollten wir den Fokus auf uns selbst setzen und glücklich mit dem sein, was wir haben und wer wir sind. Das zählt doch schließlich am meisten! Es geht nicht darum, sich mit anderen zu messen, sondern darum, zu erkennen, dass man, so wie man ist, gut ist. Selbstbewusstsein - das steckt schon im Wort: sich seiner Selbst bewusst sein. ♥️

„A flower blossoms for its...

[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] Grinsebacke vs. „mal ein bisschen posen“ - was gewinnt bei euch? 🤓 Das hier ist ein zusammengewürfelter PSFDays-Look: das Shirt mit der wunderbaren Message habe ich von der lieben @fancy.and.mood geschenkt bekommen (danke nochmal!), die Hose hatte ich auf dem Laufsteg an und musste direkt am nächsten Tag selbst bei @sueperbthelabel shoppen (übrigens gibt‘s bald noch ein paar Looks mit der Marke auf dem Blog!). Das Jäckchen war ein Glücksfund bei TK Maxx von @elietahari und die Boots kennt ihr mittlerweile, die sind von @31philliplim (und wird es jetzt dann ab Herbst ganz oft an mir zu sehen geben, ich liebe sie einfach).
Ich hatte heute übrigens einen halben Probearbeitstag, die zweite Hälfte steht nächste Woche an. Wo genau, verrate ich euch noch nicht, aber soviel: es hat was mit Mode zu tun und könnte doch ziemlich cool sein, zumindest hatte ich Spaß heute! 😊 Morgen steht dann noch ein Termin für einen zweiten Job an, auf den ich mich eigentlich auch sehr freue (also den Job, nicht den Termin, der ist leider nicht so cool, aber muss halt sein) und ihr dürft nochmal Daumen drücken. Jetzt muss ich dann rausfinden, wie ich das alles am schlauesten mache, weil unser Steuersystem irgendwie nicht so nett ist, wenn es um zwei Teilzeitjobs gehen soll. Falls hier Finanzprofis unter euch sind, freue ich mich über nen kleinen Tipp oder Hilfe, alles ist gern gesehen, ich bin nämlich selbst etwas überfordert mit so viel Bürokratie - ist wohl Teil meines #TimeToGrowUp-Lebens, das ich immer noch stark verfolge. Bald gibt’s da auch mal wieder was auf dem Blog. 😘✌🏻 #plussize #plussizeoutfit #plussizeblogger #luziehtan #celebratemysize #honormycurves #effyourbodystandards

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[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] Ich schulde euch ja noch meinen Aftershowparty-Look! Entschieden hab‘ ich mich für das wunderbare durchsichtige Kleid von @remiraylondon, das ich vor ein paar Jahren schon auf dem Blog gezeigt hatte. Ich trage darunter ein Lingerie-Set von @agentprovocateur und dazu meine Boots von @31philliplim (hohe Schuhe waren nicht mehr machbar, haha!) und ein Täschchen von @gucci. Das Thema mit dem Cabaret hab‘ ich ja ziemlich ernst genommen, auch an Tag 2, wollte aber gerne einen persönlichen und modernen Touch mit reinbringen und hoffe, dass mir das gelungen ist. 🤓 Durchsichtiges Kleid, ja, das ist nix für jeden Tag, aber wo, wenn nicht bei den @plussizefashiondays kann man das tragen? 😉 Ich freu‘ mich schon auf die offiziellen Fotos und das Video und dann gibt‘s natürlich auch einen Blogpost zu den #PSFDays2018 - same procedure as every year! ✌🏻 Und weil ich das im letzten Post gar nicht gemacht habe, möchte ich mich in diesem hier unbedingt noch bei all den lieben Menschen bedanken, die mich nach der Show und auch am zweiten Tag angesprochen und mich regelrecht mit Komplimenten überhäuft haben - das war so, so lieb von jedem einzelnen von euch und ich freue mich so unglaublich über eure lieben Worte!! Das bedeutet mir wirklich ganz viel und macht mich sehr glücklich! Danke, dass ihr immer so wundervoll zu mir seid! ♥️ Ich hoffe, keiner war eingeschüchtert oder so und hat sich nicht getraut, mich anzusprechen, weil ich wirklich gerne mit euch rede! Ohne euch wäre das ja alles auch nur halb so schön! 😘😘😘 #plussize #plussizeoutfit #plussizeblogger #luziehtan #celebratemysize #honormycurves #effyourbodystandards

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[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] Dinge, die passieren, wenn ich eine Krone finde: ich setze sie auf, zusammen mit der passenden Attitüde (Queen B who?), lasse mich damit fotografieren, stolziere damit eine Stunde lang rum und kaufe sie am Ende. 👸🏼 Die @plussizefashiondays sind vorbei und ich bin nicht mehr ganz so königlich, sondern eher zombiehaft, haha! Die drei Tage waren wie immer aufregend, emotional, anstrengend, voller Freude, Liebe und Adrenalin. Es ist wie ein riesiges Klassentreffen, teilweise fühlt es sich oft wie eine große Familie an. Ich weiß ja nicht, wie das so aussieht, wenn man uns zuschaut, aber wir wuseln da hinter dem Laufsteg so gestresst und gleichzeitig so positiv aufgeregt rum und es ist so ein grandioses Gefühl, die ersten Schritte ins Rampenlicht zu machen und euch die wunderbaren Looks präsentieren zu können. Für mich war das jetzt das 4. Mal bei den PSFD und es werden jedes Mal mehr Walks. Dieses Mal durfte ich 11 Mal nach vorne laufen und hussa, das war schon heftig! Aber es lohnt sich so, so sehr! Mit meinen 1,60 m bin ich ja eigentlich zu klein zum Modeln, daher bin ich umso dankbarer für diese Möglichkeit und dass die Marken mich tatsächlich auch auswählen. Danke. Danke für alles! Danke an @kurvenrausch, danke an @chrisfan3, danke an all die Helfer und danke an dieses wunderbare Team an großartigen Menschen! ♥️ | 📷 @wundercurves.de

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• Recap | August •

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Whoa, what happened? It’s been some time since I last updated you guys on the blog and I’m really sorry – I guess, life has happened, and an absolutely amazing summer which I tried to enjoy to the fullest. So… let’s recap August!

August started with my first festival ever – “A Summer’s Tale”. But I didn’t go there as a visitor, I went there for work. Three days of foodtruck fun at a pretty nice festival, even though unfortunately, I didn’t pick up much of the music (and missed one amazing band, Grizzly Bear, but shit happens, huh?). It definitely wasn’t easy, to be honest, I was completely exhausted after these days cause it was super hot and therefore even hotter in the truck and we were all working real hard. But it was worth it. Even though I realized that this won’t be my favorite job experience ever. It’s fun to work with people and I like to communicate with everybody, but physically, it’s way too hard for me (to be honest). Apparently, life saw this too and yelled “Hold my beer!”, cause my next job experience is about to happen soon and I’m excited to see where it’s gonna lead me to…

I finally had a new photo shoot in August, with the most wonderful → Julia Marie Werner, in collaboration with a → friend’s agency and the brands → Süperb and → Secondella, and I can’t wait to show you the cool looks we shot on yet another hot summer day. :)

I went to a casting for a movie in Berlin, had my first job interview, met new friends, including a visit from → Mona from the Netherlands, and I had a model job on a little fashion show at the Kurvenhaus, a local plus-size store here in Hamburg, just a week before the Plus Size Fashion Days (but these remain for the September recap). :)

All in all, August was a very hot month, full of new experiences and wonderful people. I got to know who my friends are and went on a few strolls through the city, found two new jobs, but am still searching for a new place to live, so that’s gonna stay interesting for a while. But I’m on it. And I’m curious to see what’s gonna happen next!

• Recap | July •

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Oh July, you were a tough month! It’s so crazy how my life changed completely in only one day in July, on the 8th, when I sat in my car and drove to Hamburg to finally chase my dream to live here and be as independent as possible. I already wrote about → the first two weeks in my new column → #TimeToGrowUp, which I will update as soon and as often as possible, because I think that this is one of the most interesting times of my life and hopefully will show many other people who struggle with the same or similar problems in life, that you can achieve anything if you really want it and decide to fight for it. It’s a battle, it really is, but it’s absolutely worth it, even though it’s pretty hard.

It kind of wasn’t as easy as I expected to say goodbye to my hometown, my friends and even my therapist, because this time, leaving was different. I had changed a lot in this past 14 months and my relationship to my hometown and everything around had grown to be a bit different. I clearly miss my parents a lot, even though I know that leaving them is necessary and the right thing to do. I also miss my friends, especially my best friend who helped me a lot when I had to come back and stay for God knows who long it would take. And also my new friends, the friendships I made in this special changing time of my life. I miss my favorite sushi restaurant, my favorite bar, I miss driving around my hometown and the next city, finding a parking lot much easier. I miss driving to my photo shoots and having my old blogger life back for a few hours. I miss many things. But as much as I miss them, I’m happy that I made this step and left it all behind. Because leaving doesn’t mean to forget. I’m utterly thankful for everything I had in the past year, the safety of my home and my parents, the friendships, the possibility to “blossom” in a known environment. And I will forever remember that time of my life and how much it made me grow already, even though there’s still a lot of work to do. 

So, for the moment, I’ve settled down in my little room, I’ve got everything I need, I got a bed (or something like it, still need an actual one, my back is gonna kill me soon), I got a desk, I got a few clothes (wasn’t prepared for THAT kind of summer, though!), I got my cat and he’s got everything he needs (even though he could clearly use a little more space but I’m glad that he’s a very comfy little guy who sleeps most of the time and is okay with our current situation – he’s not going crazy and he gets a lot of love from me and also my friend!). And I got a job. And it was already super hard – I knew it wouldn’t be easy but I kind of underestimated it a little bit, concerning the physical work, especially in combination with these temperatures (which are even higher in the truck). I’m also looking for a second job, because my work at the food truck will not pay for everything and I will definitely need more money, especially when I want to move out of our shared flat, which is supposed to be in five months.

This month, I didn’t manage to do something from → my bucket list, except for maybe sitting in the park alone – it wasn’t on my bucket list but is definitely a part of “doing things alone”, which is something I still need to do more often. So no official check-off, but something to mention. I didn’t like it, by the way. I felt very lonely in the middle of many people sitting around me with their friends or partners, doing picnics or drinking beer. Since it was very spontaneous, I didn’t bring a book and I guess that it would’ve been a bit nicer if I could’ve read something. Next time, I’ll make sure to have a book with me. Oh, and since I’m already talking about it: only read one book this month – “Wenn’s einfach wär, würd’s jeder machen” by Petra Hülsmann. As all books from her, I loved it. :)

• Recap | June •

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Yay, we made it through the first half of the year! June is over and it was the most exciting month for me – because it brought the best news ever. I won’t torture you, so here’s the biggest news ever: I’m finally going back to Hamburg! It’s going to be a huge adventure for me and actually a part of my → #SingleBucketList, because I’m being kind of spontaneous and I’m doing new things. I’ll be moving in with a friend at first, we’re gonna share a flat and I’ll have a small room, so it’s gonna be a little bit like last year when I had to leave my stuff behind and could only bring the important things and my cat – that’s exactly what I’m gonna do again. I’m leaving most of my possessions at my parents and am currently packing my stuff for Sunday, when I’ll do another huge thing: I’m driving by car to Hamburg, which means about 6-7 hours of driving alone (with my cat who likes to leak out of all his holes in the car, so the smell is gonna kill me and we’re gonna have to take a shower together afterwards, haha!). I was always very afraid of that, but driving more after 7 years of not driving, kind of got me back at not being a bundle of fear in the car anymore. So I’m gonna do this and I’ll be insanely proud of myself when I arrive safe and sound at my old new home with my friend. I’m so happy and thankful that she gave me this possibility cause it will definitely make things easier for me to find my own place when I’m around. So here’s a little asking for help: if you know someone or anything about a flat – let me know! I’m happy for any tips!

And another exciting story: I found a job! I’m not gonna tell you yet which job I found, but if everything works out and I’m definitely in, you’ll be the first to know, promise! I went to Hamburg for a trial work day and it was so cool, I really loved it and had a lot of fun, so I can’t wait to start my new work! Of course, I’ll continue blogging, but as you already noticed, it’s not that easy to make it happen like all those years before. Plus, as you read in → my latest Private post, I don’t wanna be that shallow anymore, so I feel like the new me will need a new blog, somehow. I’ll have to find out how to work on the outfit posts, will have to find a new photographer (and will miss the amazing friend I made here, → Jacqueline, who took amazing pictures of me while being here!) and I want to start writing more, share stories with you and maybe also write more about Hamburg, places I love, experiences I’ll make with this new start. I’m so looking forward to all this! ♥

June also had another amazing experience for me: I went on my first real vacation. You know, I’ve → already been in Brazil before but, to be honest, that’s no vacation since it means spending time with my family. As much as I love my family, it’s super stressfull, plus Brazil really makes me nervous because it’s such a dangerous place, so that’s not really “going on a vacation”. So, it happened in the beginning of June that I kind of felt like doing something crazy and decided to go to Stockholm for five days. I found cheap flights and a nice hotel and booked my vacation in under five hours. It felt so incredible to do it, especially because I’ve always loved Scandinavia – when I was around 15 years old, I wanted to learn Finnish because I was a huge fan of the band Rasmus and that’s how my love for Finland began, but I also really liked Sweden, so when I saw this nice offer, I just went for it and flew to Stockholm on the 21st. I had a great time there, found a new friend but also spend time alone and overcame my fear of almost everything: I took the subway on my own, walked around unknown places alone, I even rented a car with my friend and drove it (so crazy – a year ago I was actually afraid of driving in Hamburg!), went for lunch and also dinner alone,… and I saw so many amazing locations, including a lovely lake where I spent a perfect summer day at. I’ll definitely come back again! ♥

And my last appointment of June was the last session with my therapist. I really have to say that this was the most amazing thing I’ve done in the twelve months. Such a good decision to start a therapy and getting help! I can only repeat how important it was for my development, especially after the break-up but also for my whole existence. It’s unbelievable how fearful I was, that I didn’t do anything anymore and how scared I was of living a normal life. It’s so amazing to see the progress I made, how many wonderful things I’ve done – from starting to drive again to going out on my own and even going all the way to a city where I’ve never been before, just to see a concert – alone. I’m proud of myself. And it makes me the happiest person ever to be able to say that. ♥

• Recap | May •

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May – a month of many changes and many great happenings! Let’s recap them all chronologically…

First, there was an event in Munich, the “About You Awards” – they were pretty interesting, as well as disappointing for the plus-size community, because we were only 3 official plus-size bloggers at the event and none of us was nominated in their social media categories. Two fellow bloggers, → Tanja and → Jules, decided to do a movement against this obvious ignorance called #WhatAboutUs? and so many people joined us. I also posted two pictures on Instagram, talking about how sad this is. You can find them → here and → here. I’m not expecting to be invited again next year, since I’m pretty sure that the promoters of this event are not happy with a guest talking about this while being there, but I’m fine with that, as long as there’ll be a change! It just can’t be that there’s an award show for “all things social media” (actually, there were a lot of categories missing, if you ask me), but there’s not one single plus-sized person at least nominated beforehand. We’re not asking for an extra category (cause that’d be kinda wrong as well), but there should be an acknowledgement of what “we” are doing, too!

Then, I’ve checked off yet another point from my → #SingleBucketList2018, yay! I went to the cinema alone and watched one of the most beautiful movies I’ve ever seen – “Call me by your name” (watch the trailer → here). I even loved it that much that I saw it a second time while in Hamburg, because I wanted to see the original version in English. And I’m currently reading the book. :) As you know, I love Sufjan Stevens – my latest tattoo is a quote from one of his songs – and I really loved → “Mystery of Love”, that’s why I wanted to see the movie! And now I’m super thankful for the experience of doing this on my own. Another thing I can do alone! BOOM!
I also kind of started to do more of my bucket list point “embrace adventures & be spontaneous” and a little bit of “go out for a club night with friends”. We’re getting there! ;)

And lastly, there’s a full week of Hamburg in my recap! One week of Northern goodness! ♥ And guess what? The week was perfect – a whole week of the most beautiful weather, summer-like and just amazing. And so many great things happened! I can’t write about all of them yet (didn’t visit Hamburg just for pleasure, but also for business), but here’s a list of what happened mostly:

  • Friends. I didn’t spend one day alone and enjoyed it so much. I met old friends and new friends, made a great new friendship and enjoyed absolute quality time with all of them!
  • The Harbor. If there’s a happy place for me in Hamburg, it’s the harbor. I love spending time at or on the river Elbe, especially when there’s such a great weather. I love feeling the wind on my skin, in my hair, in my face. It just makes me genuinely happy. And a Krabbenbrötchen at Brücke 10. Even though it costs a fortune.
  • Food & Drinks. Well, I didn’t eat that much, cause the warm temperatures make me a little nauseous, but the food I had was AMAZING. And of course, I went out for drinks with my besties and really enjoyed life to the fullest.
  • Walking. Like, a lot of walking. But I love it! It’s so easy to go for a walk in Hamburg, especially through the city or all those beautiful parks!
  • New places and new things. After all those years (drama!), I finally visited the Elbphilharmonie! And did something, no Hamburger really would recommend: Reeperbahn on Friday night. But it was so much fun! Even though it’s horribly packed, haha!

Books I read in May: “150 Days to Date” by Katharina Lang, “Dein perfektes Jahr” by Charlotte Lucas, “Vorwärts küssen – rückwärts lieben” by Sybille Hein. A short review collection is coming, I think it’s a good idea to do that in one post instead of reviewing them all one by one. :)

And one thing I stopped doing on May 30: using nasal spray. That’s kind of a confession, I’ve been using it for so many years and it’s terrible how addictive that stuff is and how hard it is to stop using it but I had a good day on May 30 and decided that today’s the day I’ll stop. And I’m standing it! So if you’re also addicted to nasal spray: it’s possible. You can stop. I believe in you! ♥