I kind of feel like it’s finally time to give you all a heads-up on my current situation. Of course, It’s been some time since my last blog post and I’m really feeling bad because of that but as you’re gonna read in today’s post, it’s not that easy to do my work the way I’d like to.
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The last two months have been a big journey. As I told you, I started a therapy and it’s been a huge help to get to know myself and my problems and I’m learning how to deal with them and be able to be a strong and independent person. I know there’s still a long way ahead of me and I’m willing to make more steps, hard ones, new ones, happy ones and sad ones.
I’m living with my parents right now, which gives me a lot of strength and security to learn new things because I’m safe to say: no matter what, my mom and dad are here for me and love me. I’m more than thankful for them! At the same time, being here kind of makes it impossible to do my blog work – I’m missing my clothes and cosmetics, I don’t have a photographer to work with me regularly and the locations are pretty poorly cause I’m not in a big city but in a very small village.
I still don’t want to talk publicly about what happened but I promise I’ll tell you more as soon as I feel ready. I’m sure it is a story that I need to tell in order to heal and that it will also help others when they can read about my journey. So please be a little patient with me.
I missed Berlin Fashion Week and the amazing events in July but that’s okay – since the plus-size department at the Panorama fair isn’t that amazing (plus: I wanted to focus on my mental health first), I feel like it was okay not to go to Berlin this season. I’ll try to come back in January for F/W 18/19. ;)
I met many new people and made new friends, which is something that made me incredibly happy! Being back at my home town also brought back my old friends and I’ve been spending a lot of time with them – an important part of healing! It’s good to know that I’ve got amazing friends I can trust and who even love me at my worst.
At the end of July, I also went back to Hamburg for an event, went to a new hairdresser and am back to blonde, and now, at the beginning of August, I went to Munich for the Plus Size Fashion Days model casting and was a part of the jury. I can’t wait to come back to Hamburg in September for the PSFD because I’ll be on the catwalk again – for the third time and it’s gonna be huge!!