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Nachgedacht

• Thank you •

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Instead of answering your comments one by one I want to do an extra blog post and say THANK YOU – from the bottom of my heart. Thank you for your kind words and your support. I really appreciate reading your comments and your love and it means the world to me that you all understand my situation and support me and my decision to ease off a bit. As I already told you, this is not the end of this blog and it’s also not a goodbye because I will continue posting, just not too much and probably only just a few outfits. I’m currently at a turning point in my life and I am more than ready for the changes that will happen. Because suffering from depression and anxiety has made me a very fragile, weak and unfortunately also very dependent person – and this is not who I am. I will now focus on my mental health, on changing my bad habits caused by my fears and the deep sadness and therefore on myself and becoming the person I actually am: strong and independent. I know it’s inside of me and it’s time to liberate that again. I’m thinking about maybe taking you with me on that journey since I know the stigma of depression and that it’s still a taboo to admit that one is actually ill. I’m not 100% sure if I will really write about it but I want to let you all know that it’s okay to understand that you need help. It’s okay to accept that you’re not just sad. It’s okay to ask for help and it’s okay if others know that you need it. This is why I’m telling you all this. I want to let the world know that everybody, even the funniest, happiest and luckiest person may be depressive deep inside. Faking a smile is the easiest when you suffer from depression even if it’s the hardest. Depression means opposites, illogical thinking, fear and sadness, but also hiding, especially so others won’t know how you feel and what you think. Please just never forget that you are not alone. There is help out there, you just need to ask for it and also accept it. And be ready for a change. That’s what I finally understood and there’s no shame about it.

• Curvy Supermodel – mein Fazit •

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Natürlich habe ich es mir nicht nehmen lassen, gestern bei “Curvy Supermodel” reinzuschauen. Schon lange wurde sich ein solches Format gewünscht, ein Pendant zu “Germany’s next Topmodel”, aber eben in Plus Size. Gelandet ist die neue Supermodel-Castingshow bei RTL2, dem Trailerpark der Fernsehsender – vielleicht auch mit die schlechteste Entscheidung. Ein bisschen frage ich mich ja, wie das Ganze auf ProSieben gelaufen wäre, also wirklich parallel. Eventuell etwas professioneller, aber ich denke, mein Fazit wäre am Ende das gleiche.

Vor Ausstrahlung der Sendung und auch vor dem Casting wurde ich ein paar Mal gebeten, das Format vorzustellen – ich habe das bewusst vermieden. Mir war klar, dass der Sender allein schon nicht ideal für ein solches Format ist, aber ich bin tatsächlich fast ohne Erwartungen an die Sendung rangegangen. Leider wurden diese sogar unterboten.

Eine zusammengefasste Version meines Fazits hab’ ich gestern Abend bereits auf → Facebook und → Instagram hochgeladen, aber ich wollte unbedingt auch nochmal ausführlich auf das ganze Thema eingehen.