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Mood momentan. Ich bin irgendwie müde. Da predige ich immer all das Positive, aber irgendwie geht’s grad selbst bei mir nicht. Meine Eltern sagen dann immer: „Du bist doch die Lu, schau‘ mal, die auf Instagram und deine Blogleser sind alle so begeistert von dir und du inspirierst sie alle und du sagst immer, dass man stark sein muss, und bei uns bist du ganz weinerlich!“ - wo sie Recht haben, haben sie Recht. Ich bin auch immer dafür, nicht aufzugeben und positiv zu denken/bleiben. Aber manchmal geht’s halt einfach nicht. Manchmal ist alles richtig beschissen und dann bleibt auch nur das Rumheulen. Deshalb lasse ich das heute mal so stehen. Ohne das positive „Krönchen richten, weitergehen“. Weil manchmal will man auch mal eine kleine (!) Weile sitzen bleiben und sich über‘s Hinfallen beklagen. Und das darf man dann auch.

Mood momentan. Ich bin irgendwie...

[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] Und ich so: das Kleid ist viel zu groß, aber es ist so wunderschön! Also machen wir trotzdem ein Foto. 🙆🏼‍♀️ Ach, endlich ist wieder richtig Kleiderzeit, so ganz ohne Frieren und Strumpfhosen und all den anderen Mist. Ich war heute im T-Shirt draußen an der Alster, eigentlich nicht mit Weltbester Laune, aber was so ein bisschen Wasser und Sonnenschein mit einem machen können, ist schon ziemlich nice. ♥️ #plussize #plussizeoutfit #plussizeblogger #luziehtan #celebratemysize #honormycurves #effyourbodystandards

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Frohe Ostern, ihr Lieben! Ich hoffe, ihr könnt überall das schöne Wetter genießen, seid gesund, habt eure Lieben um euch und seid glücklich. ♥️

Frohe Ostern, ihr Lieben! Ich...

[Werbung] Noch sind die Beinchen etwas arg weiß, aber in diesem tollen Zweiteiler aus leichtem Jeansstoff von @sueperbthelabel freue ich mich schon riesig drauf, im Sommer ein bisschen mehr Farbe abzubekommen. ♥️ Shirt und Shorts lassen sich natürlich auch super getrennt voneinander kombinieren, aber der Jumpsuitlook ist einfach perfekt! Kann euch die neue Kollektion von Süperb nur ans Herz legen, neben diesem Outfit sind nämlich noch zwei tolle Kleider, eine richtig coole Hose und ein luftiges Sommershirt am Start, die sich alle blicken lassen können! ✌🏻 #sueperb #plussize #plussizeoutfit #plussizeblogger #luziehtan #celebratemysize #honormycurves #effyourbodystandards

[Werbung] Noch sind die Beinchen...

[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] Womöglich eins der liebsten Fotos von mir! Danke dafür, liebe Ulrike! 🌸 Ich liege zwar momentan mit Blasenentzündung und Erkältung flach (sammle zur Zeit einfach mal ALLES ein und war deshalb grad nochmal beim Arzt zum Blutabnehmen, weil das so ja echt nicht geht), aber ich freu‘ mich trotzdem riesig über den zurückgekehrten Frühling! Jetzt bleibt er hoffentlich auch und ist bestimmt nur wieder der Vorbote für einen Bombensommer! Ich freu‘ mich auf das, was kommt! 💕 #plussize #plussizeoutfit #plussizeblogger #luziehtan #celebratemysize #honormycurves #effyourbodystandards

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[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] Wenn #Coachella in Hamburg wäre... oder so ähnlich. Wir starten kurvenhausmäßig mit diesem Boho-Maxikleid in die Festival-Season! Yay! ♥️✌🏻 #plussize #plussizeoutfit #plussizeblogger #luziehtan #celebratemysize #honormycurves #effyourbodystandards #festivalstyle

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#latergram - Letztes Wochenende Ostsee, dieses Wochenende Arbeit. Was würde ich wohl drum geben, diese hübsche Möwe zu sein... aber was muss, das muss.

#latergram - Letztes Wochenende Ostsee,...

[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] Spring Mood. 🌸 Ich hoffe, ihr habt alle ganz viel Sonnenschein im Herzen! ♥️ Falls nicht, hilft vielleicht dieses hübsche Kleid (haha, ich bin ein Verkaufsgenie, oder? 😂)! #plussize #plussizeoutfit #plussizeblogger #luziehtan #celebratemysize #honormycurves #effyourbodystandards

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[Werbung wegen Verlinkung] Happiness is... sunshine, a cute dress and someone (or your favorite place or both) who makes you smile. ♥️ #plussize #plussizeoutfit #plussizeblogger #luziehtan #celebratemysize #honormycurves #effyourbodystandards #hamburgloveistruelove

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• JahresrückBLOG 2017 | III – New Year, New Me… literally. •

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2017 was a year of changes. It was the worst year of my life and at the same time the best year ever. People like to say “new year, new me” when they start into a new year. For me, 2018 literally means that it’s going to be a new year with a new me, cause I already changed a lot and I’m still in that metamorphosis mood from 2017.

Looking back, I’m pretty sure that what happened to me was the best that could happen to me cause I was stuck. And I wasn’t happy. I was horribly unsatisfied and I was a hostage of my anxieties. The change was unevitable but I wish it would’ve happened a little easier or at least not with the destroying power of a nuclear bomb. But thinking about it, this was probably necessary – otherwise, I wouldn’t have understood that I’ve got to do something.

So – let’s stop philosophizing about this because this is the last part of my recap of the year and all I want to do now is have a look at the things I learned 2017…

I love the #Truthbombs from Danielle LaPorte and this will be my mantra for 2018.

• Private XXI | Overcoming Depression and Anxiety I •

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It’s been some time since I told you about → my struggles with depression and anxiety. I feel like after about half a year I’m ready to give you a first update on my situation. That’s why this post is part one of my story and journey with these two – cause I’m pretty sure that there’s room for more and probably not only a second update. 

• Hormone free | Before •

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Today is not only the day I’m finally moving out of Hamburg for good, it’s also the day I’m changing something in my life that’s been a part of it for about 14 years. I decided to share this with you since I believe that this is a very important topic and it’s something we need to talk about more. A few days ago, after already thinking about it for a few years, I decided that I want to stop taking the pill. There are many reasons and these are some of them that led to my decision:

  • I’ve been taking it for 14 years – that’s more than half of my life and definitely not acceptable anymore! I don’t even know who I am without the pill, without all those hormones in my body. I’ve been 13 when I had my period for the first time and got the prescription because of the horrible pain I felt. My gynecologist thinks I may suffer of endometriosis and checking this will be the next step. 
  • Not only have I been taking it for so long, I even took it without doing the pauses because of the pain. My gyn let me do this so I won’t even have my period and therefore avoid the pain. Of course it’s super convenient and lovely not to bleed every month but looking at it from the “natural” side: this is not normal. 
  • The pill is dangerous. Highly dangerous. I mean, only the danger of thrombosis is enormous and I don’t want to live in fear of this anymore.
  • I’m pretty sure my migraine is caused by the pill. And I got it very often. Too often. 

I’m actually a little scared of how my body will react. Like: I’ve always had very good skin, never any problems with pimples during my puberty or after, no acne, no nothing. Only thing I’ve been always struggling with is hormonal (maybe also caused by the pill, who knows?) hair loss. I’m pretty sure that it also didn’t help with my weight to take the pill so excessively. Another thing: diabetes plus period – this is probably going to be hell since it affects the blood sugar. So I’m pretty sure that I’ll have to learn a lot… And then there’s the fact that I’ve never got to know myself, my physical and emotional feelings, my period cycle or anything else without the pill. Thinking about it, this is actually not only terrible but also super sad. 

I’m also scared of the pain I will feel again but I took a very special precaution: I’ve been part of a crowdfunding project called “Livia” – the device is supposed to work like a TENS machine especially created for menstrual pain. This sounded more than appealing to me and I blindly invested my money in this project and around July this year, I finally received my very own lilac “Livia”. And trust me: I’m extremely excited and curious to try it, so somehow, I’m actually looking forward to my next period (sounds horribly crazy because if it doesn’t work, the pain will be unbearable and it will definitely make me consider stopping this whole “no more pill” thing because this is my last chance – regular painkillers never worked for me)… I’ll keep you updated on that – if it works, how it works, etc.

And then there’s another thing I want to try – menstrual cups. I don’t want to use tampons anymore. It’s insane that it’s almost 2018 and the evolution of tampons stopped many years ago and the use of them is also pretty dangerous. And let’s be honest: sanitary pads are a bloody mess (pun intended, haha!). I really don’t like it. The invention of menstrual cups is super cool and I’m excited to get to know them (I’m open for any tips!), even though I won’t be able to use them instantly cause I’ll have to get to know my menstrual cycle. So here I am – ready for everything that’s coming.

Last topic: contraception. I still don’t know which path I’ll take for that. Obviously, there’s loads of stuff to discover, read and learn and I haven’t decided yet, what I want to try. We’ll see. 

So that’s all for now. I’m pretty sure that in two days (at the latest) I’ll cryingly regret my decision but it’s so worth it. The pill is not an option anymore.

Questions for you: who’s on this journey with me? Are there other women who stopped taking the pill or intend to do it (join me, now!)? What are your experiences? How do you feel now? Which contraception method did you choose? Tell me your story if you want to, I’m super curious! :) 

• Private XX | Twelve again •

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It’s been already a little more than six months since I’m living back home at my parents. I moved back into my old room downstairs and I had to go through the hardest time after the break-up without my stuff. In a few days, I’m finally getting back all my clothes and personal belongings – it’s gonna be a relief and also a much needed cut and line at the end of the last 8 years.

But at the same time, I had to go through 3 stages of being back at my parents with 27 and I want to share them with you in this personal post: